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push me and i will resist...

a safe haven, a sanctuary, a toilet, a cave, a safe deposit box... this blog will be all these things... and so much more LOL mostly just snapshots of emotions... something aliens might find interesting...

Liars and Madmen...
Posted:Dec 16, 2008 11:20 am
Last Updated:Dec 21, 2008 9:00 pm
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a huge thank you to all those shrinx from the past... the ones who set me up to fall... and keep their books full... if there was a way to kill all of you, i would do it... the complete cruelty of it is not shocking, just disgusting...

don't ever ask yourself why people go into work on murderous rampages... ask yourself why more people don't...

and for those with their fingers in their ears... just give a listen to "get in the ring," as that sums it up nicely... way too many words the ole ff would block........

i will exist.
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cheez-whiz
Posted:Nov 20, 2008 7:03 pm
Last Updated:Dec 10, 2008 10:24 pm
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i like to watch cheese-ball movies... not those horrid ben stiller movies... or those "comedies" by apatow - does anyone without a penis actually find that junk funny?? like heigl herself said, it portrays women as shrews... anyway... i was watching 13 going on 30 today (for, admittedly, the 3rd time), and i was pondering how i really enjoy these simple types of movies... maybe it's just a great 80s throw-back?? certainly i always watch ferris bueller when it's on... or wolf lol i NEVER get tired of back to the future, although it's less cheesy... even mindless action-movie cheese is good... something like mr and mrs smith...

on a more serious note... i find myself involved in a little custody dispute and am about to order a temporary injunction against an unsuspecting idiot... i am hopeful that our system is not so messed up that it will sit idly by and watch the future of a being flushed, but my rational side practically knows better...
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flippin' little ...
Posted:Nov 18, 2008 11:10 pm
Last Updated:Nov 21, 2008 6:14 pm
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u have all the money in the world... u have the perfect partner... how many do u have??
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feelers...
Posted:Nov 18, 2008 10:11 pm
Last Updated:Dec 10, 2008 10:24 pm
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tossing out some words here... trying to see who is still hanging around... not sure why i felt compelled to come here tonight, but i did... not yet ready to go into the mundane details of my life, either...

was VERY happy about obama's win... the absolute explosion of interest in race relations... the incidents which prove not much has changed... oh, tenn, the kkk homeland... really, i am rather ashamed to be living in the us these days...

as always, i am up for spirited net-babble... and still trolling for music... and i haven't forgetten anyone...

much love
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fabulous Christmas present...
Posted:Dec 26, 2007 7:28 pm
Last Updated:Nov 18, 2008 10:12 pm
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my dad gave me a 500 GB hard drive for storage... so no more burning dvds constantly to empty this laptop YAY!

also let out the "big secret" and it was ok... things look good... and i still have the upper hand, which is nice...

hope ev1 here is well...
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no rulebook for this...
Posted:Dec 23, 2007 3:04 pm
Last Updated:Dec 25, 2007 6:41 pm
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is there any way to tell a guy that he is a father after 5 years of him not knowing? does he have a right to know? and why am i digging into this? i dont want it to be something i am doing to have ammo or to perversely try to fix me... any thoughts?

will try to get to everyone's blog soon... life gets in the way from time to time lol but i wont knock having been busy for once... it was a good change...

merry Christmas all!

-s
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great movies...
Posted:Nov 20, 2007 6:56 pm
Last Updated:Dec 23, 2007 3:01 pm
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just drop a name or two here - i have been trolling for good movies... especially comedies, ones that are actually funny - which is rare...

couple of good ones i've seen lately: gridlock'd [this movie manages to be both gritty and hysterical, for which it deserves some kind of honor because that has to be almost impossible to successfully pull of], about a boy [sappy to an extent but with some very funny scenes], and friday [which i watched for the millionth time - but it never ceases to be funny and if u havent seen it, u should]

so throw out some names here - i dont usually do movies but i am gunna be stuck at home over the holidays kinda stoned out so i need something to stare at...

-s
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being who i am...
Posted:Nov 13, 2007 6:30 pm
Last Updated:Dec 12, 2007 9:05 pm
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in the center,
a thousand backs surround me...

i scream loud, louder -
no one turns around...

i grab a wrist and pull...

a warped visage greets me...

all is undulating slow-motion,
a paradox nightmare,
a vicious landscape...

i cry, but i have no feelings...
i deserve happiness, but i haven't paid my dues...

i am the problem, because you lack empathy...

i am confrontational, because i am at war...

a quick flick and a twist sets you free...

but how do i escape...

me?

-s
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attn MEN - please respond!
Posted:Nov 13, 2007 12:32 pm
Last Updated:Nov 23, 2007 6:22 pm
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does it bother you when a woman has what are considered to be stereotypical masculine traits??

things like competitiveness, [forgive this next term but i could think of no other way to say it] aversion to snuggling, ambition, aversion to discussing emotions, tendency towards protector role, etc??

i know enough to know that i have many stereotypically masculine traits... i also know that my best relationships have been with men who also had masculine traits and the worst relationship of my life was with a guy who had more than a few stereotypically feminine traits...

all of my really close friends have been men, as well...

but i was curious what the ff consensus is about "manly" women - and i dont mean beards and muscles

-s
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snuff it.
Posted:Nov 12, 2007 5:50 pm
Last Updated:Nov 13, 2007 8:47 am
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that's all there really is to say... welcome to november... and the realization that nothing has happened the way i thought it would...

"still talkin' to myself...
and nobody's home..."

love one another...

and reach out to someone... the type of person you would usually pass by... at least give 'em a smile... trust me - you don't know how important it might be...

-s
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