Very honest and insightful response, as to the way most women think in this situation. My advise is to not to be too hard on yourself. Everyone makes mistakes, just use this a learning experience.
Keep in mind, first of all, that women admire confidence.
Also keep in mind, what Ms Vogels has described, as to how
most women are going to respond to you, in your current state
of mind.

Ahem, Suffering you're a panicky character aren't
you? Have you seen what happened to the real "Runaway
Bride". Not pretty, Suffering, not pretty indeed!

i like it...

spontaneous love sometimes leads to disaster.

Very Interesting.

Some lovers arenot recogenizing between real life and
imagination, so they are going long times in dreams with
thier relations love.They should walk in the way of love
as wondering in the desert with them just bottel of water
, if they can across the desert with using just the bottel
of water then they will win the love .[COLOR
limegreen]

One can only hope and pray that everything will work out.