Wrinkles
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Posted:Sep 10, 2009 2:25 am
Last Updated:Feb 23, 2010 4:19 am 5901 Views
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Its funny how life goes zooming past as you get older .You blink and the next thing you know ,your ten years older. Its true what they say about you getting to a certain age in your mind and that age stays with you in your head but your body doesn't want to play that game. It ages no matter what you do .I don't worry about wrinkles ,for every wrinkle tells a story. I do worry about agility,strength,and my mind going gar gar.But i hope the mind thing won't happen and my strength and agility stays with me for a long time yet. Going back to the Gym and going to exercise my brain by reading more. But today i am going to clean up this house. Teenagers can be very messy sometimes..don't ya know. Its hard to get them to do anything. Cleaning always makes me feel good .Clean away those cobwebs in the house then read a book this afternoon and chase away those cobwebs that are trying to build up in my mind .
Have a wonderful day and try not to worry too much
Later-
Lani
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To be what your Not !
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Posted:Oct 7, 2008 3:25 am
Last Updated:Aug 11, 2009 8:22 am 5347 Views
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To be what your not.
Life depicts that one should conform.
Conform to what?
Who's to say whats right and whats wrong.
Some people follow the law of the land .
Some people follow the law of their god.
Some people don't follow anything and do what they want .
Some people do what they think is right by them.
If you saw a young in the street and they seemed lost ,calling for their mum. Would you walk on by for fear of society thinking that you might be a pe-do.
Or would you risk this indignation of other peoples thoughts of you, and help the to be safe and with his mum?
Would you help a woman that has tripped and dropped her shopping all over the floor , or would you just walk on by.
Has mankind lost its sense of passion.
His sense of caring.
His sense of other beings in this world.
Would you risk your life to save someone you don't know?
Whom could answer this unless it happens to them.
Do mums give up their lives for their ?
Do dads give up their lives for their families?
Do strangers give up their lives for strangers?
Weather you do or you don't ,does that mean we are still heroes in our gods or others' eyes.
What ever we do with our lives ,what ever we give or don't give does not make us good or bad . Mistakes are made and we learn from our mistakes. But i believe their is good in everyone ,no matter what they do or don't do.
We are all born the same . Its our surroundings and influences around us that make us what we are today.
Peoples beliefs won't change the world.
People fight in the name of peace and freedom. They give their lives and sometimes take away others all in the name of peace and freedom.
No matter what your cause is. When you take away freedom,peace and life . Then the good in you is being overtaken by others' influences.
Don't let your life intrude on others.
Be kind, help someone whenever you can that needs help. Don't just walk on by.
And try not to have your life mean that another's' life should be taken away.
JUST BE YOU.
Love and be Happy.   
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A letter to My Head
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Posted:Sep 12, 2008 3:19 am
Last Updated:Feb 12, 2011 5:30 am 5735 Views
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A Letter To My Head
I hear a crow calling my name.
The ticking of a clock.
Time passes with every whisper.
With my head upon the block.
The sound of cars as they pass.
Are like the sounds of crashing waves.
Upon the shore, my soul sits waiting.
For the sun to rise again.
With the dagger in my chest.
And the lies that lie uncovered.
I will one day be at rest.
And no longer feel smothered.
And the truth at last will see.
Will show the True-You on your knees.
The mirror of your darkness.
Before your self as it should be.
The pain that you should feel .
Will be the hurt that truth reveals.
Upon the path of lies and pain.
You chose to take ,You cannot heal.
Time passes now ,it does not wait.
Like a whisper in the breeze.
I hear the crow calling my name.
The wind whistling through the trees'.
Your soul is lost to darkness .
Your mind cannot return .
To once the love it held so great.
Your heart will forever burn.
You'll never feel love again.
The tenderness and care.
These precious things I gave to you.
Never again I wouldn't dare.
My head sits on the chopping block .
Waiting for the axe to fall.
The key that once my heart unlocked .
Is buried within the wall.
The wall it lies within its self
on ground that’s hard to tread
The earth cannot be trod upon
My heart lies in my head.
To enter such a lonely place
Would never you return.
So keep your distance
Head these words.
For you my heart won’t burn
Time passes now ,it does not wait.
like a whisper in the breeze.
I hear the crow calling my name.
The wind whistling through the trees'.
Your outstretched arms.
Are beckoning .
for me to come to you.
But I will not return to what we had
Your love is not so true.
You see
I no longer am the girl .
That once gave her heart and mind .
To someone whom was trusted more
My love it made me blind
My heart beats with cautious longing.
For the love that i once held.
My heart was crushed ,My soul destroyed.
I feel so repelled
I am not the silly girl .
That once gave her heart for your keeping.
That silly girl is all grown up
And wary to all the creeping.
You cannot have what you once had .
Nor I cannot the same.
We are two souls that lost the trust.
And love, we must refrain.
Time passes now ,it does not wait.
like a whisper in the breeze.
I hear the crow calling my name.
The wind whistling through the trees'.
You are the father of my
And this is why I’m here.
They need you more than words can say .
I will not disappear.
You think its ,oh so simple
To be together as one again.
But trust that lies so deeply crushed.
You Can never again amend.
I hope That peace will someday come.
To you and me alike .
For I forgive you all your sins
But emptiness you leave inside .
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To follow a dream.
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Posted:Aug 13, 2008 6:05 am
Last Updated:Aug 18, 2008 7:01 am 5660 Views
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My is 19 ,a man one would think. A man that can support him self. Well you would think so. He thinks i'm nagging when i tell him to get a full time job. He says he wants to follow his dream . He studied music at college for 3 years . He is good at playing his guitar, playing his drums, singing . He is even in a band. His Dream is to get hit records with this band. I want to help him all i can but we all have dreams. Dreams that need funding. I am trying my hardest to get him into a full time job by september 1st. But he says that he has a part time job that starts then .Do i believe him------A Big NOOOO. He tell me lies all the time and when i face him with them ,he talks his way around them. I love him ,don't get me wrong and i want him to have his dream . But i can't fund this dream . He should realize this.I tell him all the time. He is a man .Well you would think so at 19.
I'm his mum and i'll do all i can but he has to take responsibility for himself one day. AHHHHHH.
Deep breath...........Count to ten..........Calm again. Well for now.
Lani666
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Are they planning an attack?
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Posted:Jun 16, 2008 5:47 am
Last Updated:Jun 17, 2008 1:15 am 5702 Views
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Its that time of year again .
The time of year when they attack.
But i am ready this time.
I am watching the walls.
Am watching the floors.
Am checking for openings around the door frames.
Everything seems secure.
I know they will find a way in .
Its only a matter of time.
But i am ready.
Ready for Battle .
Ready for a fight to the death,well for them anyway.
Now i am the sort of person that wouldn't harm a fly .
But when you invade my home ,my life ,my sanity .Then prepare to meet your maker . For i am prepared with,
Sprays,
Poisons,
and if all fails --The Big Boot.
So Mr Ant and company.
Don't dare to enter my peace of mind.
For you will not be allowed to operate your Army in my Territory.
You Will be exterminated.
Me Paranoid .
NO-Not I.
Just Prepared.
Love.Peace.And Bubblegum.
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Hey ! Builttohug! contact me again .email deleted
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Posted:Jun 11, 2008 7:34 am
Last Updated:Aug 4, 2008 6:50 am 5614 Views
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Hey Builttohug.
This is the only way i can think of trying to contact you.
I sent you an email and you sent me one back but the big guy or little guy even , decided to not let me read or answer your email . Apparently they couldn't let me see it because you had said something they didn't want me to read and said you had abused their terms and conditions.
I just wanted you to know that i would have replied to your email if i would have been allowed to by the Big guy or little guy whom rules this space and thinks they are protecting people from whatever .
I think that i should have been the judge of what you wrote to me . I'm a big girl and i think i know what is or is not abuse .
I'll probably be deleted now for speaking out .
But i just wanted you to know that i always answer emails to me when the big or little guy allows.
Hope you can find a way to contact me again .
Just know that i am not ignoring you . I was brought up better than that ,with manners and stuff. I is a Lady
And an annoyed one at that .
Lani666
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I smell her .
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Posted:May 27, 2008 7:10 am
Last Updated:May 28, 2008 3:22 am 5545 Views
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I open my back door to the back garden and its raining.
I sniff the air and i smell her .
My Barley is in the trees, grass and flowers.
Her smell is still there.
I don't want to shut the door but i must.
Have to get ready for the day.
Have to carry on .
Life goes on .Or so they say.
She was just a dog .But to me she understood every emotion i had .She understood what i was saying in my head.She was a piece of me that is still there when i sniff the air in the back garden.
No one else smells it but me. But i know she is there in everything and always will be.
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WHAT EVerrrr !
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Posted:May 15, 2008 4:56 am
Last Updated:May 16, 2008 7:08 am 5805 Views
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WHAT--EVERRR!
These are the words often heard from a teenagers mouth when told something by their parents.
They have no meaning to a but when trying to talk to a and the only reply you get is whatever ,can be very frustrating .
The knows this reply will get you feeling that the wise words you said to them were not important to them . In fact what ever you say to a from 13+ probably is indistinguishable to them . Makes no sense to them what so ever and that everything you say to them is --- for want of a better word--Gobbledygook.
No longer does the come home from school all excited about what they have learned and what they have been doing . But instead ,when asked the question --How was your day at school today -comes the reply ---WHAT---Everrrr.
Its o.k. I know we will come out of the other side of this vast tunnel of darkness called growing up , adolescent: a juvenile between the onset of puberty and maturity . One day in the not so distant future . WE will be communicating in a civilized way once more .
Anyway , when i am old and grey and my have and they become this cheeky little monkey from hell . I will sit back and smile when asked the question by my --Was i like that when i was a . Maybe i will reply with --WHAT--EVERRRR.
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My left this planet.
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Posted:Mar 13, 2008 8:02 am
Last Updated:May 23, 2008 6:10 am 6277 Views
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My Barley left this planet last Thursday 6th March 2008 aged 15 years and 2 weeks old . In my last blog i explained how she was getting old and was ill with stuff . I finally plucked up the courage to take her to the vets and let him terminate her life . Because that is what he did . He didn't put her to sleep , upon my request , he terminated her life .
I went there with a friend . I was a cowered. i couldn't stay and watch the vet give her an injection . My friend stayed with her . He said that she didn't even know what was going on . He said that as soon as the vet put the needle into her , she was gone .
We both went quiet on the way home . We didn't say a thing again till we reached home .
The opened the door and asked me if she was gone . I said -Yes ,She's gone .
When i was younger , many many moons ago . I remember pleading with my mum not to have our mongrel dog -Patch put to sleep . She agreed that we should try with the pills the vets gave us for him and he lived till the ripe old age of 17 where he just went to sleep one night and didn't wake up again . I remember crying for a long time after he went . But my ain't even fazed. When i said that Barley had gone , they just shrugged and went back to there computer games . It seems that only i had been grieved by Barley leaving this planet.
I talk about her allot . Me thinks the are fed up with me talking about her . But its my way of grieving .They suggest that i get another or a cat but thats not what i want . What i want is for time to spin back to a couple of years previous to this one and stay there for a while . But i know that , that won't happen .
Life will go on . and i will just plod along with it . I will never replace Barley with another Dog . I can't go through that heart-ache again .
I have just got rid of her basket . She was like that character -Harry Potter , in the way that he lived under the stairs . Barley too lived under the stairs . That was her spot. Now the hoover lives there . Barley was a hoover in her own right . Anything you dropped on the floor ,edible or not ,she was there hoovering it up with her snout . I have named my hoover Barley . Because now when i drop crumbs on the floor . Barley my hoover is taken out from under the stairs to clean up the mess.
It doesn't have those sole-full eyes that Barley had or the ever wagging tale but it does the job .
I'm missing you Barley .
I know that i will come to terms with you leaving .I just hope that you can forgive me for not being there when you drew your last breath.
I hope where ever you are right now that you are happy and with out pain .I love you Barley and i will always have you in my heart.
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All dogs go to Heaven.
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Posted:Jan 28, 2008 6:50 am
Last Updated:Feb 26, 2008 4:28 am 6341 Views
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Its bluming ages since i did a blog , so me thought i'd just type a little and see what emerges from the recess of those deep dark areas of my inner person.
Feeling a little sad .
My Barley is getting old . She is very unsteady on her feet , she has Arthritis and i know it hurts her to walk .She pees when she stands and can't hold her no 2s either . She is on steroids at the moment , the vet said it is the last thing he can give her and that i should decide weather i think her quality of life is what she wants .
I've always thought that animals being able to be put to sleep when the pain gets too much is a good thing . But i am the one that has to play god with her life . She is 15 years old in a couple of weeks . Don't want to let her go but i know i have to . She is a beautiful Golden Labrador.
Why can't she just slip away in the night .
The vets surgery is such a cold sterile place to die .Every night i will her heart to just stop . I wake up in the morning hoping that she died in the night whilst having wonderful dreams about chasing cats .But her eyes open as i come down the stairs and my heart goes out to her knowing that she will have to endure another day of pain .
I don't want her to go .
I know she doesn't want to leave .
I saw a film once , well more of a cartoon . It was called --All dogs go to heaven . A brilliant film about dogs going to heaven .
Well if there is such a place , then i know that Barley will go there and be happy.
I just wish that i didn't have to push the button.
I love you BARLEY
I hope that i haven't offended anyone with the way i feel about a dog .I know that there are people , out there that are suffering . But to me , Barley is someone that has been there for me when i have been down and deserves respect and empathy from me .
She's me Best Friend.
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