So many hurting, So many unsure. So many who have no clue of the future.
So so so many. Yes, I often talk about if our heart has been broken in a million pieces. Yes many of us have had hurt that drops us to our knees. I have felt the shock of what I am told or have to face make me feel as though my heart stops and I wonder if I can even breath or face thinking of another minute let alone another day. Yes, the times when we know we have functioned as a zombie wondering where the day has gone, where the week went, how the month has slipped away. At times the waves of pain can flow over us to a point we think perhaps we will die, even being so intense at times tears will not flow.
At times we feel so unsure. So many times we feel all that has ever been our assurances, the things we felt would be our tomorrow, our next week, our next month has been torn with a ripping and tearing from our very body, from our soul maybe even from our existence. We are so unsure and the hours, days and weeks slip past.
So much hurt, so much pain, so much doubt, so many tears, so many fears cripple us so we can not face a clue of how to accept we will ever have a future. No future as all has been ripped away. All is gone, all is no more, all is stolen, all is only for others.
Time waits on none of us, but moves ahead as we stay stuck. Time goes on as we stay frozen. Time marches ahead as we stare. Time is passing even as we get rid of the clocks and calendars. Time has passed, time is gone, time will go on. Time was in the past and time is in the future. When is it our time? Is our time now? Was our time before? Will it be our time in the future? Is it time to hurt? Is it time to feel the pain? Is it time to forget the future? Do we have time to let time pass? Is it time to get over it? I say we process in our own time. I hope we do not take time to become hateful and bitter. It is time to smile to ourselves and live today this very day.
Yes, we have hurt and felt pain. Yes, we will have our times of pain again. Yes, we have a past. Yes, we have had our future shattered. Yes we have our doubts. Yes, we wonder where time has gone. But, we know we are living as the per we have become with the completeness of what our life experiences are. We are in the present and moving to the future without having to know what it holds as we are living now. Now is the time to embrace being who we are changing what we wish and at the speed we feel we can accept. We do not need to see the future until there is one, we do not have to live in the past as it is what we have become and its hurts are or have lost the power over us if we do not live in its grip of anger. We have time to learn to love again, we have time to let others get close again, we have time for a future. Our time is starting right now. [page 2]
Moving from the city, and a divorce has left me with little other than my house, cars and a simple active job plus the beautiful area I live in. I do have the longing for a life partner.. Not a mom for s, not a babysitter.. Well maybe I need babied, *smile* but one who loves and can accept being loved. I am single Dad of my 19 year old that lives with me at times.
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My Ideal Person
A woman who desires a safe and loving relationship, who can be gentle and understanding, growing into the friendship and caring for the rest of our lives.
Oh yea I can understand if your heart has been broken in a million pieces, and can relate to your repeating or working through the past many years of attachment and discussing or maybe even comparing, so just talk, talk and talk.
He has a name, he was part of your life, and that is ok.. Just feel free to talk.... I enjoy your talking and us making our own things to talk of but please don't be cruel or mean, just be real, and talk.
...simple things, like a walk at the beach or the trees. Things like shopping for nothing, but just taking a ride to see other towns or areas on short trips. Maybe roughing it in a yurt or cabin ... Probably no tents please.
I am looking for a simple woman.. Not hateful, mean, cross, bitter, just us, with loving understanding and hopefully for the rest of our lives. I want a woman with tender understanding that wants to enjoy a simple life perhaps with intensity but little or no drama.
Even if you are homeless that would be fine, I prefer you have a decent computer and hopefully a high speed Internet access.. Ok maybe use the library, but just be willing for us to work when need be so we can have love and a life for US.
Favorite films: Nine and a half weeks is the only one I can think of.
What are your favorite musicians or bands?: None.
What qualities do you look for in the people you date?: Intelligent, Glass half full, Glass half empty, Quiet/shy, A bit naive, Funny and silly, Realist, Cautious
What words best describe your personality?: Intelligent, Glass half full, Glass half empty, Quiet/shy, A bit naive, Funny and silly, Realist, Cautious
Tell us about your personal style and why it works for you. Casual and comfy? Sharp and professional?: I am a Rugged laid back person who left the fast lane of the city 5 years ago. Yes, I happen to be Tender and need someone who will be gentle with me as well. I am done with all the gotttttta beat the others and now just want to mellow with my woman as we take lazy trips or work what we have to making ends meet.
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