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 | These are the results of a 200-foot fall off the Rocky Mountains of Colorado. This is the search to re-educate myself after suffering total amnesia and starting off again as a 21 year old infant. This all took place primarely from 1980-1986.
What this blog is all about:
Basically, this is the view of a child, a boy a young man...evolving in a world that was brand new to him. As he is expanding in thought and growing, being shaped by the conditions and influenced by people, certain people and of the scenarios they involved him in and of the critical surroundings. While facing the challenges of an unfamilar, an alien social structure and the cultural forces that shaped the life of this individual.
Thanks "msalchemy2"...i.e...CAT...i.e...Ancient... I personally could not have said this better!
Your best bet, if you have joined late. Do not open a post, open "Blood, Sweat and Tears" Blog as a whole. Start out on the highest page found at the bottom of this page and from bottom of that page, scroll all the way to the bottom and read up. On all new pages go to the bottom of the page and read up. Or go straight to my site, fill in the blank: ___.F...F.../blog/svsucardinal/....and then follow this instruction.
It is IMPERATIVE .... that you start at the beginning of the blog and read all, for it is a journal, a periodical. For ALL post are a continuation of the last. You'll not understand or follow this blog unless you do! It will give continuity to this epic
Thanks to psychic_dreams, I've realized that I duplicated post. The first part of this blog is the letter to the journalist which contains excerpts of the journal. Then I post the original journal, which sporadically duplicates some posts. It will stop around Page 7 or so of Chapter D and all new material will appear. |
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| ...they call it self-medication…whatever! |
Jul 18, 2008 8:30 am
104 Views | I was, because of a controlled substance, ordered to a drug rehab, they call it self- medication…whatever!
Time passes at the rehab talking about why I shouldn’t drink or do drugs. I’m basically serving my time in an alcohol and drug rehab class. I had told the Cognitive Change class leader Lisa, that my addiction is to neither one of these substances and that I am a certified kleptomaniac.
Please treat me for that because that is my drug. For almost six months I was told why I should not drink or use illegal drugs and for six months I told her again that I don’t, I’m a thief that’s my drug. I was constantly forgetting to go to this class and facing probation violation. | |
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| I had a very strange, satisfying sensation. |
Jul 18, 2008 8:28 am
89 Views |  | Reasons were starting to become clearer to me about my addiction to stealing. I have been in contact with the Brain Injury Association of America support group and am learning a lot about exactly why I do the things I don’t want to do.
(Now jumping ahead to the present 3/1/02.) The last time, prior to this date, I committed retail fraud and I had an experience, a sensation. I had a very strange, satisfying sensation. I remember, as I was being caught and hauled off to the security office of a Meijers Superstore, for a spilt second a fantastic rush struck my brain. On the very crown of my head in a perfect circle I had this sensation. The feeling it left was contentment.
I realize I’m in some very big trouble and I’ll probably being going to jail but I really don’t care, it’s all right. |
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| ....leave their jail the same person they put in. |
Jul 18, 2008 8:25 am
80 Views | | After 6 months I was released early because of good time. The idiots went and allowed me to leave their jail the same person they put in. I was real surprised that the physiologist never showed up and it was such a promising plan not being able to steal and become cured at the same time. | |
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| I was getting no response.... |
Jul 18, 2008 8:24 am
63 Views | I had been seeing this physiologist for about 3 months. I had not quit stealing and thought this jail term may be the place to be while I continued my therapy with the Doctor.
I want to let everyone know that I never hurt anyone; it was always cappers at places like Wal Mart, Meijers, places that my $1.95 theft would not hurt.
Well I alerted my physiologist, Robin McKinney that I was in jail by letter and beg for him to visit me. Robin, the physiologist worked for PPSI (Professional Physiological Service Inc.). After not hearing from him for weeks I wrote again, then again, then again, then again…my plan wasn’t working, I was getting know response from my court ordered therapist. | |
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| ....awaiting sentencing from Judge Meter ... |
Jul 18, 2008 8:22 am
67 Views |  | Blogers the next several post is a state of mind that has passed. It is what I went through as I reorganized the brain. But it is "Days of Futures Past"......OVER WITH!
This reminds me of the time I was on probation and got caught for retail fraud in Bay City. At the time I was awaiting sentencing from Judge Meter on a retail fraud bust in Saginaw.
I went before Judge Meter and he became aware of the Bay City retail fraud and said that he would run his sentencing concurrent with Bay City’s.
Thank God I went to High School with him and his brothers. Well I got sentenced to 8 months in Bay City and gladly accepted it. The judge prior to Meter, because of a retail fraud case, had sentenced me to probation and to professional counseling. |
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| Was this done purposely? NO…subconsciously, we’ll never know! |
Jul 17, 2008 3:43 am
82 Views | Was this done purposely? NO…subconsciously, we’ll never know! My actions spoke loudly to me!
I had wrote anywhere from 20-30 kites to Tony Larue begging for his help. Finally after no reply, I told the turnkeys that I was going to commit suicide. I spent the weekend on the suicide rock, the Psychologist; Tony was there first thing Monday morning.
Let me tell you the suicide rock is no place to be for the weekend. It seems the only way the poor and sick can get help in this State is to get in trouble with the law. The proof “is” in the pudding. | |
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| Today |
Jul 16, 2008 8:32 am
121 Views |  | Keep away from people who try to belittle your ambitions.
Small people do that, but the really great ones make you feel that you, too, can somehow become great. |
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| ....jail, a place I basically put myself.... |
Jul 16, 2008 8:25 am
91 Views | Journal Page: 4A
It was nothing that both of you or I knew I was going through. Everything I got myself involved with, I say to the day, I was fully aware of.
Maybe there are some contributing factors that were and are still beyond my control but I am facing them now. I have become aware of my actions more so then ever before and have been tired of them for a long time. I have searched out professional help at an even more determined manner then ever before.
After I was placed in jail I had lie to get the chance to see the Psychiatrist, and it worked. I had written dozens of kites to the jail psychologist, Tony LaRue. I was basically begging for his help, only to be ignored. I was in jail, a place I basically put myself in to get help. | |
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| ... held, loved and cared for, accepted as am. |
Jul 16, 2008 7:42 am
97 Views |  | During most of the time all this was happening I still needed to find out why they called that “my special purpose”. Then I found out! Dad, my mind was not shaped like a “p--sy”. I was a kid in a candy store, who for the first time tasted candy and it was good. I was in the middle of and in control of the candy store. It was a new experience I enjoyed. I was being held, loved and cared for, accepted as am. |
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