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Jan 12, 2009 10:31 pm
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for just over the past week, i have been sick. yuck. i went to the nurse practitioner at work, and she said i had bronchitis. i could barely talk, chest hurt, cough, cough, cough. she put me on an antibiotic. bactrim. it has been 5 days. last night when i showered, i saw some redness on my legs. i thought nothing of it, as my legs get red when i shave them. at work today, when i was washing my hands, i saw like three red spots on my left hand. i had just used the new alcohol foam, and i figured i was allergic to that. then i looked at my arms. my right arm was clear, and then right before my eyes, little red spots began popping up. so weird. now i was thinking about my antibiotic. so, i lifted my shirt (i am in the bathroom)OMG! i looked like i had the measles! i even told that to my supervisor, and said i had to go home (laughing) she laughed back and said i don't think so, so she sent me back down to the nurse practioner. she said, "now you can just add sulfa drugs to your already long (allergy) list". ugh. i guess i will just die next time i get sick!
lorna, willow already beat you to writing on my newly painted walls with a marker. i washed some of it off, but there is one spot i have not gotten to. 
huggggggggsssssss
tommie
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the end is near
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Dec 31, 2008 9:41 pm
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the end of the year that is. by the clock in the corner of my computer here, it says 11:05. it will switch to 06 or even 07 maybe before i finish typing this blog.
it has been a different year for me. i started out in miami. oh how i miss my friends and patients in miami. would i go back if i had the opportunity? i think yes. i would go back to the VA hospital in miami, and work with those same people, and those same patients. but that opportunity cannot happen. many of those people have left for other opportunities in their lives. and the patients too.
then i came home expecting to take custody of my oldest grandson. plans had been made, but never went through. funny how things change with money comes into the conversation. i found out that i could not support myself when i got home, let alone a child, which was going to end up to be two children. seems funny how they are both fairing as well as they would have with me, even though they rarely see me now that i am home.
the only thing that happened as expected, was i got a beautiful grandson in june. he certainly was a big boy at birth. one ounce shy of 11 pounds. he is growing at normal rate, and seems to be the size of any normal 6 month old now. he laughs and has learned to hold his bottle. tonight, he is with me, and he got up on his knees and rocked back and forth just like his mommy did when she was learning to crawl. he is so much like she was, it brings back so many memories of my first baby. carter now has 4 teeth. and is the brightest spot in my life right now.
i returned to the hospital that i had been working at before i left for travel. i am happy there most times, but there are alot of times i just want to walk out the door and not go back. there are times i find it so difficult to get out of bed knowing i am going to have a day of hell. but i do it. i really like alot of the people i work with. there are alot of new people there this year. alot of the ones i had previously worked with there, have gone elsewhere. maybe if i lived closer to the job, i would be happier there, i totally hate the drive, but it is not possible for me to move closer. i am so in hock with this house.
another part of the story. this house. my house. i cannot believe i have lived in one location for 16 years of my life. (in march, it will be 17 years) the longest i had made it somewhere before that was 4 years before that. i had never had a place that i could call my own. it is overly amazing to me, that i have here. my home. still. i have added the bedroom on to it in the past years, and remodled the kitchen so i like it (pretty much) and this past year i did a good cover up on the living room, which i am pretty happy with. it makes the house much more nicer to be in. i still have alot of work to do to it. i don't even use the upstairs. but this house is mine. 15 years of me in this one house. when i originally bought this house, i would never have imagined that i would still be here. now it is not possible for me to sell it. it is not necessarily the house, but the location. and something else.
when my oldest was a little girl, we moved constantly. never in a place more than 2 years. she started school here in pana, then we moved to florida and she went to two different schools there. then we came back and she went to school in tower hill for a year. then we moved back to pana, and she remained in the pana schools until she graduated. though, we still did alot of moving until her high school classes. her paternal grandfather died, and discussion of the grandmother selling that house (which they lived in pretty much of their married life) had come up. my oldest daughter and my oldest son told me, that they would never let the house leave the family. they would do what they had to do to buy the house themselves. when i asked why, my oldest daughter, i think 18 at the time of this conversation, said to me, "out of all the years and all the houses we moved to, i always knew i had someplace to come back to. this was my security mom".
so, no matter where i travel to, what i do to the house, i can never sell it. not only is it my own security, but i have two grandbabies that are constantly moving about, and when i came home this year, i heard my then 7 year old grandson say almost that same thing. "i know this house will always be here for me to come to nana." this is the house he was born in. this is the house he always comes back to in between the other homes he has. this is his security.
this year, i got to stay for a week with my only living relative from my moms family. Al and his wife. i had just met him in september of last year, when i drove down to miami. it was a good week. linda takes good care of my cousin. and my cousin takes good care of linda. they were certainly blessed to be able to find each other. and i am more blessed to have been able to meet them.
i met some army moms from one of the internet groups i frequent. such good people.
i went on a cruise! wow. me. on a ship. in the caribean. who would have thought. and i even got to go inside that mountain in tennessee. i saw ruby falls. and the rock gardens. i have never really vacationed in my life. i am so glad that if i never get to vacation again, i was able to do it twice in one year.
i did not get to meet anyone from friendfinders this year. yes, that is disappointing, but there is another year to come. possibly it could happen in 2009. you never know what God is going to bring into your life. where He is going to take you. i do hope to meet alot more people. new and old.
wow, the clock in the little corner of my computer says 11:38.
reckon i should sign off and quit boring every one so.
just let me take one more minute and thank every one i have met, and will meet, have talked to online, and on the phone. you have made my life great this past year. you have certainly added to my blessings.
God Bless you all and Happy New Year
huggggggssssss
tommie
@11:41, lol
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movies
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Dec 30, 2008 8:01 pm
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my daughter told me of a website that i can go to and view movies. so now i will be a movie addict. movies may replace ff, lmao. kidding. i will always come here.
off to bed now though i would love to watch another movie. watched 4 christmases and seven pounds tonight. both good ones.
huggggggsssssssssssss
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i have
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Dec 29, 2008 12:43 pm
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i have been blogging elsewhere. awwwwwwwwwwwww, bad me. but y'all can find me and read those blogs if you try. my space is where tomi2t hangs around. i am just as boring there as i am when i post here, but i did want to share this one with y'all. hugggssssss
what is this new year going to bring to us? are you one that wonders about the future past today? i rarely do that. really. my brain is not big enough to wonder where i am going to be in 6 months, not even next week. i think of today. maybe tomorrow, as when i am working i think, gad, i have to work tomorrow (again!!) or, woo hoo!!, i have tomorrow off and i don't have to come into this hell hole.
so i have a small brain. i find that if i think/plan too far ahead, those plans usually do not happen. like i had planned to have worked in california by now. prepared for it. spent out over $300 to get the license i need to work there. where am i? illinois. so, now i pretty much do in life what "happens". oh, don't get me wrong, i do make plans, they are just short term plans.
your life is what you make it to be. have you heard that? well, it is not always possible to make your life what you WANT it to be, but it is up to you to make it certain ways. happy, healthy. things such as that. i WANT my life to be financially rich so i can be free to do other things i WANT to do. such as spend unlimited amounts of time with my grandbabies. travel. far, far away, and see lots and lots of things. of course, i would take my grandbabies. lol.
there are other things in life that i want, but i have learned to live with and be happy with what i have. even though i continue to attempt to do things that i WANT to do.
i have my family. i would not trade them for any other. i might not be happy with everything they have done or in the way they have treated me, but they are mine. and no matter what anyone says or does, they cannot take that have away from me.
i have FOUR children, who are adults. well, that is what i am told. but do your children ever become adults in your heart?
i have FIVE grandbabies. even though i only get to see four of them. and i do not get to see as much of them as i would desire to. but i still have them.
i have my own house. granted, the bank really owns it, but i live in it, so i have it.
i have a vehicle that is dependable to drive. again, the bank owns it, but i use it. lol.
i pretty much have my health. not the best in the world, but better than most people have.
i have a job. again, not exactly the one i want, but i make the best of the one i have.
maybe that should be a list of the things i am thankful for? as i am thankful for all that i have. i am happy (most times) and healthy. i am wealthy in my family. i guess where this is going is that i am not going to focus my life on my wants, i will focus it on my haves.
huggggggggggggggggssssssssss
tommie
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it's saturday morning
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Dec 27, 2008 3:58 am
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and that brings that song to mind, come saturday morning, i'm going away with my friends.
how i wish
instead, i am going to work
hugggssss to all
tommie
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cold in illinois
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Dec 21, 2008 4:21 pm
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and lonely.
the weatherbug says it is 5 degrees here, plus the windchill makes it between minus 16 and 27 degrees. finding it difficult to keep the house warm, but i am doing ok. feet are cold. guess that is why they make socks, lol.
i tredged out for a very short bit. i had to take movies back up to the redbox. and i took my photo printer over to the daughter. i didnt stay at her house because it is cold there too. but i did hug carter and bradyn. was not enough to get my fixes though.
my hand about got frostbit just from the van to the house.
found more cold air leaks in the windows. i put towels across the top of the bottom frame. (does that make sense??) these windows are less than two years old, why are they leaking? i know the new kitchen windows are leaking too, but they are hard to get at. i have to climb into the sink and lean way forward. it is really odd the way the carpenter built this "bay" window. it looks nice, but is really inconvenient. i really should climb up there and lay towels in there too. found air leak in the bathroom closet. put tape over that, seems to help. the wind is so bad, it is blowing through the plastic i have on this window here beside the computer. that is why my feet are cold.
i have not seen the kids all week, except for the very few minutes i saw the two boys today. the ex came over for a couple minutes to bring food for christmas dinner on christmas eve. daughter stopped by to pick up something, that i don't remember what it was. that was the extent of my company.
it was 4 days before anyone called me the beginning of this week/end of last. if i died, no one would have known. if i fall, i am SOL.
i have been trying to get pajamas made for the kids for christmas. i have not had success. i have multiple patterns cut out, but nothing sewn. the ex has brought over presents for me to wrap and put both of our names on. i just put the kid who they belong to on it. i rarely put from on christmas presents. they are supposed to be from santa. not mom n dad, or nana and grampy.
i am sure you have taken notice the word ex in there a few times. he is weaning his way back into my life, and i am not able to stop it. i do not want him "back". i could never live with him again. but he is helping me out, and i need the help, so i cannot tell him to go away.
please God, find me a travel position so i can "run" away again. i am into what i left before. a job that is an hour drive away. no money. sitting at home alone, when family lives less than 5 mins away. and the ex.
hugggggggggsssssssss
tommie
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mark, i believe in angels
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Dec 15, 2008 11:17 pm
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you made your post read only, so i could not put this in a reply to you, so here it is anyways. i believe in angels too. and i know my mom is always there with me cause she won't quit tossing the pennies at me. and my dad tosses canadian pennies and dimes. don't know why the dimes, but he used to give me canadian pennies all the time when i was a "kid". lately, i have been finding two pennies together. hmmm, is that the both of them, or someone else???
love ya mark
hugggggggggssssssssss
tommie
ps, i did not write this poem, only come across it one day when surfing.
Pennies From Heaven"
I found a penny today
just laying on the ground
But it is not just a penny
this little coin I've found...
Found pennies come from Heaven
that's what my Grandpa once told me
He said Angels toss them down
oh, how I loved that story...
He said when an Angel misses you
they toss a penny down
Sometimes just to cheer you up
and make a smile out of your frown...
So don't pass by that penny
when you are feeling blue
It may be a penny from Heaven
that an Angel has tossed to you.....
~Author Unknown~
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the big boy is up!!
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Dec 10, 2008 7:11 pm
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wooooo hoooooo. i am back on my desk puter. the laptop can take a rest!
i do not know what actually caused me to have such luck, but i am not going to complain.
the problem started somewhere this past summer when windows thought i should update to service pack 2. it would not upload to my puter, this one, and it cause my way to get to internet to not be recongized. (my modem??)
today, i was transferring pictures so i could lessen the load on the laptop, and that annoying little yellow shield was down in the bottom corner telling me i had updates. now, this puter is not online. but i wanted to get rid of that little yellow shield anyways, so i clicked on it. somehow, windows service pack 3 uploaded onto my puter today. and now my internet problem is solved.
woooooooooooo hooooooooooooooo.
that was number two of my three happy's today. things come in threes. if you want to read about my three happys, find tomi2t on my space.
hugggggggggsssssssss
tommie
happy, happy, happy
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and i shaved my legs for this?
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Dec 7, 2008 11:01 pm
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the kids were good this morning, so i was able to shower and shave while they were still here. amazing.
but it is funny of the things i think about while i am shaving my legs.
i hate to shave them. my first ex hated when i didnt.
i mean, it was not that i went around like a hairy bear, he just seemed to think i should shave them every night before bed. i had 4 kids. do you think i felt like shaving my legs every night? besides, he didnt shave his face every day either.
once or twice a week is usually ok for me. but in the winter, i don't do it that often. (my legs break out from this horrid winter stuff when i shave them.)
when the marriage started going sour, more or less, and the nookie went to near nothing, i seem to remember him saying something like, well, if you shaved your legs more often. so, of course, if i thought i might like to have some nookie that night, i would make sure i shaved my legs before bed. but i didnt get some anyways. and then some night, when my legs were at their hairiest, nookie happened. go figure.
well, i did. i figured if i wanted nookie, i didn't shave my legs and there was more chance of it happening. and i also figured, that if i did not want nookie, i would shave my legs, and it never failed, lmao.
and i was thinking, if i was in florida, i shaved my legs everyother day, cause i wore capris and didnt want to run around with nubbies. lol. i want to go back to florida and wear capris. it is cold here in illinois and i am tired of jeans and sweats.
hugggggggssssssss
tommie
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another day starts
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Dec 7, 2008 6:17 am
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all is well this sunday morning.i hope your day is good.
hugggggggssssssssssssss
tommie
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