| Wednesday virtual hug for all blogers... |
Oct 24, 2007 3:46 am
1188 Views |  | 
There's something in a simple hug
That always warms the heart;
It welcomes us back home
And makes it easier to part
A hug's a way to share the joy
And sad times we go through,
Or just a way for friends to say
They like you 'cause you're you
Hugs are meant for anyone
For whom we really care,
From your grandma to your neighbor,
Or a cuddly teddy bear
A hug is an amazing thing -
It's just the perfect way
To show the love we're feeling
But can't find the words to say
It's funny how a little hug
Makes everyone feel good;
In every place and type,
It's always understood
And hugs don't need new equipment,
Special batteries or parts
Just open up your arms
And open up your hearts |
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| It's Cuddling Time |
Oct 23, 2007 6:06 am
1010 Views |  |
the day has been
oh so long
the pressures
have been great
stress abounds
what we need
tonight is to
relax and just
cuddle in each
others arms
to snuggle skin
to skin, cheek to cheek
and let our hearts
dictate the rhythm
of our evening
sharing words that
remind us as well
as take us to paradise
melting into oneness
we escape into
peaceful sleep to
awaken to a beautiful
new day...what a
thrill to cuddle with
you tonight and forever...
 who dont like to cuddle .....
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| Hidden Thoughts |
Oct 20, 2007 3:31 am
1553 Views |  | Alone
I sing the song of hope
Alone
I read the stories that they wrote
how like myself they live alone.
Alone
I dream of words, stretching thoughts,
and seeing things, with tender eyes.
Only beauty and song can fill my world,
of poetic paradise.
Alone
At times my thoughts deceive me.
Scatter like some frightened birds.
Come and go, as if to tease me.
As I try searching for a word.
Alone
I walk the path, that nature casts
A small flower, or a tender blade of grass
All these to me can sing.
We build words, around these simple things.
Alone
I speak of love.
A meaning deep, a consuming natural thing.
A soul gift, dear to the heart.
All hopes center on it's fragile wings.
Alone
As we gather thoughts and store them
Carefully place them here and there.
We capture all the beauty,
That only dreamers share.
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| Dear friends, acquaintances and total strangers... |
Oct 3, 2007 2:39 am
1127 Views |  | Afew days ago my cousin has passed away. I have decided to write down his story because it carries an important message and someone might learn something from it. I am kindly asking you to take a moment of your time and read it.
If we managed to persuade one single person to reconsider drinking and driving at just one single occasion, we might have saved a life(yours,your loved ones or strangers; it doesen't matter). Something like that is worth a few minutes sacrifice isn't it?
This is a true story, it happend in Slovenia in june 2007.
MEMORIAL TO MY COUSIN
His name is Damir and he celebrated his 32rd birthday two days ago. He was my cousin. I am terriffied of writing about him in past tense. He is still my cousin but I will never be able to laugh with him, talk to him or hug him. He died today. That's actually really wierd. He phisically died today, his soul was dead for the past 9 years.
When my mother told me about his death, I wasn't surprised. In the past year he has at least three times defeated death. Every time he woke up at the intensive care unit, the first thing he said was: „Fu*k!". And I can't really blame him for doing that. For the past 9 years he just didn't live at all and even physical existance has become too much to handle for his sensitive and fragile soul. He was carrying a very heavy burden, burden of guilt with wich even getting through every single day of your life is an exhausting experiance. But eveything started, and ended, with Maja.
Maja was the love of his life. She was a year older than him and they were a couple for 5 years. They adored oneanother. He always wanted to be with her and everywhere they went, they went together. They were a perfect couple in every aspect. They used to come to our house very often and we spent time together, playing cards and games, laughing and having fun. They were planning a bright future. She was a wonderfull girl. Beautiful, humble but intelligent and always very caring.
She had that bright spirit and she liked children. Noone ever doubted that their future will be the brightest possible. As the saying goes, love conquers all!
It was Maja's birthday and their friends have hardly convinced my cousin to drive them to a nearby disco. He was the only one with a driving's licence and access to a car. They celebrated with alcohol. Too much of it. On the ride back, my cousin took a fast turn, his brains altered by the influence of alcohol, couldn't keep control of the situation and the car with four youngsters turned over. My cousin's best friend was instantly dead. His faceless head has haunted my cousin for years. Maja was injured but conscious, she even talked to Damir while riding in an ambulance to the hospital. She said that she is scared and he hold her hand when she died. At that same moment his soul died with him, although he wasn't injured. The fourth passanger in the car that night, Maja's best friend, was completly unharmed
as well. And from than on, all hell broke loose.
Maja was an only child, her parents blamed my cousin for everything that has happened. I remember that he stayed at our house for a week right after the accident. It was like he was staying in prison because he was controlled all the time to prevent taking Maja's path as he has promised. As I look back today, I wonder if it wouldn't be better if we'd let him do that, because after her death, he just wasn't the same. He became an personification of suffering and a prisoner of his burden of guilt. He couldn't handle all that pain and he couldn't understand why she died and he stayed alive. The suffering was too much to bare so he foun refuge in drugs. He became a drug addict and soon the society has given up on him. He served his jail sentance, he tried to get his life back on track but it didn't work out.
Every single night he had nightmares. Every single night he relived the accident. Every single night he was haunted by the feeling of tremendous guilt for the killing of the love of his life, the only child of her parents and for the death of his best friend. He was carrying his hell everywhere he went, so he had nowhere to run. He tried to get off drugs at a clinic twice, came back full of hope and optimism but the society was always throwing rocks at him. He was labeled. He carryied alabel of a drug addict and murderer. The worst thing was, that he saw himself as drug addict and killer. His mother and sister did their best to help him get pass it and start a new life. Nothing worked. The whole family got involved but he was already dead. Dead from the accident on. He tried to get up and walk so many times but the whirl of pain always took him back to the bottom. The load was too heavy.
He attepmted to take his life at least for times. He always nearly made it. The doctors had no explenation of how it was possible to survive a car crash with a truck at full speed and have minimal damage and three drug overdoses that could kill a horse. Obviously someone up there had different plans for him. It looked as he hasn't suffered enough. He returned from a drug clinic in Spain about half a year ago. He was clean and full of optimism. He wanted to find work, make something out of his life but that was impossible in our surroundings, because he was an ex drug addict. The only help he was offered, was methadone treatment but he didn't need it because he was clean. He just needed psychiatric care but noone didn't want to provide it to him because they knew his story. He was regarded as a hopless case. That hurt him a lot. He said that when he finally wanted to make things better, the society turned it's back on him. Inspite everything, he didn't give up, although he was almost ghostlike at moments. Like a living dead. In his eyes there was a lingering shadow of sadness, dispair and voidness. Sometimes he was like an empty shell and his sister used to say that he's been dead for a long time.
The day before his death, he looked completly healthy and he was talking to his sister about his future. He said that he has one more thing to do before he dies. Noone knows what that thing was and if he did it or not. The next day his sister found him nearly dead. Doctors resuscitated him, everyone believed that he will survive as he did many times before. But this time death wasn't his choice, his heart has given up. Even the most sensitive and gentle soul needs some time to hit a breaking point. His needed 9 years. I think that in all these years, he has served his sentance for drunk driving, killing his girlfriend and best friend. The cruelest was the sentance of guilt that he had to live with for all those years.
Damir, you will be with us for the rest of our lives. We will never forget what you had to go through in your life and we will never judge you. I am hereby declaring and promising that I will NEVER sit behind the wheel under the influence of alcohol, not just because of myself and everyone else around me but mostly because of making sense of your and Maja's suffering.
To let you know it was not in vain. I will always love you and I know you will be happy up there. Together
With love,
Your cousin |
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| Just because... |
Oct 2, 2007 5:18 am
866 Views |  | Today is not a holiday
It isn't even your birthday
But I still thought I'd like to send
A special message to my friend
You make me laugh and make me smile
You ease my troubles for a while
When clouds are thick and skies are gray
You put some sunshine in my day
You're really thoughtful sweet and kind
A friend like you is hard to find
I know I've told you once or twice
That I think you are very nice
But someone who's as great as you
Should be told more often than I do
And so I send these words with love
Why did I send them?.....just because!!
For Apollo  thank you for friendship ...
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| thank you ... |
Oct 2, 2007 1:11 am
785 Views |  | How can I say thank you each day as sometimes days just slip away .
And I say thats ok
Thanks for trying to understand who I am and the things I do
And I give thanks today .
Thanks for the mystery of life and for the times we share each day .
And sometimes I will say .
Thank you more and more each day as we go through life along our way
In thankfulness I pray . |
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| Where i belong .... |
Sep 29, 2007 9:54 am
1006 Views |  | Listening ...Honeyroot - Where I Belong...
Stoped by at this song... and a thought crossed my mind ...
Looking back... a girl full of energy.. some goals ahead, big dreams, big wishes, ...a lot of friends,
love,...and all falls down in pieces in the fraction of a second, when I got
diagnosis: cancer  ... how many sleepless nights, how many
thoughts if I would survive, I got a chance of 20 % to survive,
what should i do?.... I let him free...,
after fights and dealing with my illnes, I survive ...
after many months ...stand again slowly on my feet,
and look for him...
but his soul was free and he flew away...
me, I stuck in time ...for everybody time went on...
in my life one and half years were missing...so where do I belong?
do I belong here?...
everybody needs time for repairing himself, ..
and is it time for me to move on ?
i just wonder where i belong....
so..........
I got no worries on my mind
Leaving all my cares behind
Don’t want no troubles at my door
I don’t need them anymore
‘Coz I’m....
....moving on
To where I belong
Feel the sunshine breaking through
And all the grey sky’s turned to blue
I won’t let sorrow follow me
Just like a bird I’m flying free
‘Coz I’m....
....moving on
To where I belong...
....where I belong...
'Coz I'm moving on
to where I belong
where I belong...
where I belong...
I got no worries on my mind
I got no worries on my mind
got no worries on my mind
just like a bird I’m flying free
got no worries on my mind
Just like a bird I’m flying free... |
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| You and me ... |
Sep 27, 2007 8:34 am
819 Views |  | We grow in this world,
learn what is meant to be
is there enough love out there
for you and me.
We look at the stars
up in the sky.
thinking if love will
pass us by.
We meet many people
and some are shy.
I think that love
will pass them by.
So i look at myself
I nowthat i am free
cause i have got this love
that belong to
YOU AND ME
So noone will stop me
or keep us apart
cause i have this love,
deep down in my heart.
So now i must go
and i hope you will wait
cause one day soon
I`ll walk through your gate.
Cause i have this love
and you should see
as it belong only
TO YOU AND ME. |
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| best friend... |
Sep 26, 2007 10:20 am
927 Views |  | You turned my darkness into light;
You made everything all right.
You picked me up when I was down;
You turned my life around.
If I didn't have you, what would I be?
A blessing is what you are to me.
When I needed you the most, you were there;
Even if it seemed like you didn't care.
When I didn't think I could make it another day,
You chased all my doubts away.
If I didn't have you, what would I be?
A treasure is what you are to me.
The world is full of many people, it's true;
But there is only one of you.
You fill my heart with love;
You're a God-sent gift from above.
If I didn't have you, what would I be?
An angel is what you are to me.
Lost and alone, I will no longer be;
Because you are here with me.
There is no reason to be sad;
You've taken away all the bad.
If I didn't have you, what would I be?
A best friend is what you are to me!! |
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| for my friend |
Sep 26, 2007 9:20 am
870 Views |  | Every now and then
We find a special friend
Who never lets us down
Who understands it all
Reaches out each time you fall
You're the best friend that I've found
I know you can't stay
A part of you will never ever go away
Your heart will stay
* I'll make a wish for you
And hope it will come true
That life would just be kind
To such a gentle mind
If you lose your way
Think back on yesterday
Remember me this way
Remember me this way
Hmm……….. this way
I don't need eyes to see
The love you bring to me
No matter where I go
And I know that you'll be there
Forever more apart of time, you're everywhere
I'll always cares
And I'll be right behind your shoulder watching you
I'll be standing by your side and all you do
And I won't ever leave
As long as you believe
You just believe..... |
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