http://friendfinder.com/blog/gorgeous_asian2/?pid=p9814 [SIZE 4][B][I]"our choices in life are half chance, so are everyone's else"...[/I][/B][/SIZE] [B][SIZE 3][I]"the way you live your life, the perspective you select, is a choice you make every single day when you wake up. it's yours to decide"... [SIZE 2]=====Lance Armstrong=====[/SIZE][/I][/SIZE][/B] http://friendfinder.com/blog/15385/post_103558.html?pid=p9814 it is hard not to think but i am. i feel very apprehensive. it seems as though things have come to a standstill. it has been a long journey. i feel stifled... and these thoughts comes to mind..do you Fri, 05 Sep 2008 18:26:33 -0800 http://friendfinder.com/blog/15385/post_103558.html?pid=p9814 http://friendfinder.com/blog/15385/post_103443.html?pid=p9814 what am i running from? myself? when i know for a fact that everything is not what it seems? when i know that it is all a dream? nothing is true... everything is an illusion... and i am just a sleepwa Thu, 04 Sep 2008 01:40:43 -0800 http://friendfinder.com/blog/15385/post_103443.html?pid=p9814 http://friendfinder.com/blog/15385/post_103377.html?pid=p9814 it's dark... the darkness invades my heart, i feel so lost in this inky darkness... i have never felt so lonely ever... the pains that tears me to bits. i need a friend to confide in... there are so m Wed, 03 Sep 2008 07:18:55 -0800 http://friendfinder.com/blog/15385/post_103377.html?pid=p9814 http://friendfinder.com/blog/15385/post_103281.html?pid=p9814 what is wrong with trucks here today? early morning drive in china is crazy with all those cars, motorcycles and yes trucks all over the place.. and as i've said in my previous blog drivers here in Ch Mon, 01 Sep 2008 17:41:06 -0800 http://friendfinder.com/blog/15385/post_103281.html?pid=p9814 http://friendfinder.com/blog/15385/post_103238.html?pid=p9814 was walking on the way back after my morning run when the rain starts to pour... everybody’s running in... except me.. i continue to walk. a few curious glances from passers-by are nothing i’m not use Mon, 01 Sep 2008 06:36:37 -0800 http://friendfinder.com/blog/15385/post_103238.html?pid=p9814 http://friendfinder.com/blog/15385/post_103207.html?pid=p9814 my family is my canvas....in time of adversity, your heart is your compass... pointing you to the place where you feel safest... for me, my home and my family is where my heart is... been away from ho Sun, 31 Aug 2008 20:39:26 -0800 http://friendfinder.com/blog/15385/post_103207.html?pid=p9814 http://friendfinder.com/blog/15385/post_103111.html?pid=p9814 listening to Sarah Brightman's "Winter in July' made me post this blog.. here's a part of that song=========================Title: Winter In Julyartist: Sarah BrightmanLook around wonder whyWe can liv Sat, 30 Aug 2008 05:33:34 -0800 http://friendfinder.com/blog/15385/post_103111.html?pid=p9814 http://friendfinder.com/blog/15385/post_103051.html?pid=p9814 there is this part of me that i never thought i would give up. somehow i always thought i could make it work with whatever stood in the way. this time though, it’s different. i suppose the first time Fri, 29 Aug 2008 02:18:13 -0800 http://friendfinder.com/blog/15385/post_103051.html?pid=p9814 http://friendfinder.com/blog/15385/post_102985.html?pid=p9814 this week, the next month and for all of the near future at work. i am SLAMMED, and not in a good way! thank god some of my projects are almost done. so dear friends and bloggers.. if i am a slacker w Thu, 28 Aug 2008 00:24:54 -0800 http://friendfinder.com/blog/15385/post_102985.html?pid=p9814 http://friendfinder.com/blog/15385/post_102899.html?pid=p9814 here's another experience about one of the spa clinics offered here in china.. an experience that i could not say i enjoyed.. wanna find it? read on! ===========================china has a long histor Tue, 26 Aug 2008 17:21:01 -0800 http://friendfinder.com/blog/15385/post_102899.html?pid=p9814 http://friendfinder.com/blog/15385/post_102846.html?pid=p9814 "i've looked at life from both sides nowfrom win and lose and still somehowit's life's illusions i recalli really don't know life at all." ~~Joni Mitchell~~==================... life is a journey, no Mon, 25 Aug 2008 17:43:34 -0800 http://friendfinder.com/blog/15385/post_102846.html?pid=p9814 http://friendfinder.com/blog/15385/post_102807.html?pid=p9814 some friends been asking me how is it to be living in China on my own away from family and friends.. thus, i think of reposting my previous blog here with some updates.. so here it goes..============= Sun, 24 Aug 2008 21:49:41 -0800 http://friendfinder.com/blog/15385/post_102807.html?pid=p9814 http://friendfinder.com/blog/15385/post_102751.html?pid=p9814 i don’t know why all day today i felt like empty. i guess when you are alone you can trick yourself into thinking that if you were with someone - it would be different - it would somehow be better! an Sun, 24 Aug 2008 00:46:01 -0800 http://friendfinder.com/blog/15385/post_102751.html?pid=p9814 http://friendfinder.com/blog/15385/post_102695.html?pid=p9814 music has the ability to move people in ways like nothing else in the universe can. hearing a song that you like can change your emotional state instantly or very quickly. it’s like one moment you’re Sat, 23 Aug 2008 05:52:19 -0800 http://friendfinder.com/blog/15385/post_102695.html?pid=p9814 http://friendfinder.com/blog/15385/post_102628.html?pid=p9814 life is... weighing heavy on my shoulders tonight... but i know this is all my doing. no one else does... whom can i blame other than myself... i have a choice in everything i do... yes, i really do.. Fri, 22 Aug 2008 05:47:22 -0800 http://friendfinder.com/blog/15385/post_102628.html?pid=p9814 http://friendfinder.com/blog/15385/post_102604.html?pid=p9814 i write for no one but myself. the small voice at the back of my head tells me that i am right. i tried to write for an audience. the desperation was the end of me. but no... you cannot please everyon Thu, 21 Aug 2008 19:47:07 -0800 http://friendfinder.com/blog/15385/post_102604.html?pid=p9814 http://friendfinder.com/blog/15385/post_102543.html?pid=p9814 dear almonds,why do you have to be so good? especially when you are of the cinnamon brown sugar covered kind... or covered with chocolates?!i don’t care that you have low net carbs, lots of fiber, no Thu, 21 Aug 2008 01:00:47 -0800 http://friendfinder.com/blog/15385/post_102543.html?pid=p9814 http://friendfinder.com/blog/15385/post_102538.html?pid=p9814 self-image and or self-discovery is a very painful process. it is not easy to find flaws in ourselves. just because we do not see them does not mean that they do not exist. we view ourselves as perfec Wed, 20 Aug 2008 23:27:40 -0800 http://friendfinder.com/blog/15385/post_102538.html?pid=p9814 http://friendfinder.com/blog/15385/post_102395.html?pid=p9814 at times, thoughts invade my mind. aah! thoughts... i have been accused of thinking too much. unfairly, but to an extent it was true... not any more... as i was running along the Chang-An park this mo Mon, 18 Aug 2008 23:14:02 -0800 http://friendfinder.com/blog/15385/post_102395.html?pid=p9814 http://friendfinder.com/blog/15385/post_102383.html?pid=p9814 sometimes, rejection brings more pain than angst... you need to think about yourself at times. it is quite surprising how you tend to go on the way you do, and then one fine day, you are jolted back t Mon, 18 Aug 2008 19:04:47 -0800 http://friendfinder.com/blog/15385/post_102383.html?pid=p9814