| A Rare Chance to Get Online At Lunch. |
May 1, 2006 10:16 am
Mood: content, 1010 Views | Ooooo it's an inservice-work day today so we get an hour and a half to eat lunch. That means I go to the university and get online for almost an hour.  Woohoo.
Hmmmmm, went to bed reasonably early by Brucey standards last night about 12:30 AM. Also got a little bit of a chance to snooze since my arrival time didn't have to be about 7:15.
Working my butt off today getting tons of paperwork done which is good, because it's almost overwhelming.
Feeling in a pretty good mood today. I don't know why there's nothing that's really happened, good or bad LOL! 
I think sometimes I just get moody. My dark feelings sometimes need to be vented so every so often I'll write a poem that expresses the anger and frustration I really have with myself.
One of the problems with blogging, especially here is that everyone reads your words and think they did something to upset you. I'm not really upset with anyone. I sometimes get upset with myself but that's not anyone's fault.
I will say that sometimes I get my feelings hurt or second guess myself about something I might have said or done, but for the most part I know that my friends care about me and they're not going to suddenly stop being my friends because of something I write, say or do. At least I certainly hope not.
As for all of the negativity going on, I stay out of it, because I come here to have fun and relax not to engage in negativity. Negativity solves nothing and it only drains off positive energy that could be put to good use.
That doesn't mean I never express a negative thought, that would be impossible, it just means I refuse to go out of my way to any longer engage in negativity. Except for towards the president. LMAO Just kidding.
I'm going to start looking for apartments that I can afford this week. I have some numbers but I need to call or visit.
Might have to wait until next week because of my son's big graduation this Saturday. Ah well that's the scoop in Brucey's life right now. | |
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| Looking Forward to a 3 day week. |
Apr 30, 2006 7:12 pm
Mood: moody, 892 Views |  | Well tomorrow the kids aren't there and it's just a work day. Then there are 4 days in the week where the kids WILL be there but I'm taking Friday off to drive out to my son's graduation.
So for me it's really only a 3 day week of actual school. Right now my kids are reading the Time Machine by H.G. Wells, which is an excellent story. My kids only have until May 18th and they are done because they are seniors. The other students go up through Memorial Day weekend.
I have felt very strange thinking about my son getting his degree already. It makes me feel kinda old. LOL! Still life goes on and time marches onward. As Joni Mitchell said in Circle Game, "We can't return we can only look, behind from where we came, and go round and round and round in the circle game."
I guess the last couple days I've realized that I'm not one of the hottest males on the FF board which I guess I already knew, but needed to be reminded of.
I'm also not going to leave FF. I know about this other site that people are talking about, and it's got just as many problems as FF does if not more. I got a rude offensive letter a couple weeks ago from a total creep on THAT site so anyone who thinks that site is some panacea is kidding themselves. I will say it has a nice e-mail system and I like the blog system there but the IM system has been broken and unfixed there for over three months and the service really sucks.
Plus, I don't just come here to blog although I love to blog, I come here to take part in fun moderated discussions on my discussion groups. Still it's a free country and if people want to leave I'm sure they'll leave for awhile find that other place is boring compared to here and come back. If they don't then I'll just make a bunch of new friends or keep talking to the ones who stay here. |
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| A Lazy Saturday. |
Apr 29, 2006 5:32 pm
Mood: bored, 941 Views |  | Hmmmm, haven't written a lot lately because I haven't thought of anything really fascinating to write about.
Yesterday was fun. I worked until about 8:45 after stopping off for some socialization with my colleagues from my main job after work.
Then I headed over to karaoke as usual on Friday. Last weekend when I wasn't there the place was packed so naturally last night it was pretty light at first. The good thing is I got in to sing 5 times.
My friend Ronda was there as usual as was Sheena my other friend, but most of my regular friends weren't there.
I sang Wonderwall by Oasis last night which is good for my voice range. I also sang Gambler, Coward of the County by Kenny Rogers and Good Riddance and Boulevard of Broken Dreams by Green Day. Got a lot of nice compliments.
Then I came home and stayed up way too late. LMAO! No biggie though because this morning I slept until just past eleven . Today I worked about 6 hours and just got home and made a reservation for accomodations at my son's graduation next weekend.
Tomorrow I need to work 4 hours but it should be a fairly relaxing day.
I've still got an annoying cough. Went to the doctor the other day and he gave me an inhaler. The inhaler helps some but it's still annoying.
Anyway that's the gist of what's happening around here LOL! |
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| Oooooo it's Thursday Time for Brucey's Weekly Numerology. :) |
Apr 27, 2006 2:29 pm
Mood: devious, 1097 Views | Okay it's Thursday afternoon and time for yet another edition of Brucey's numerology. Here goes
0-the amount of money spud butt has left after she bids on all of the men she's drooling over.
1-Number of days until karaoke Friday
2-Number of days I took off last week to go west.
3-Number of women I have a crush on right now.
4-Number of school days next week with kids.
5-Number of people I IMed last night LMAO
6-Number of new friends I've made in the past month.
7-Number of weeks before I get my own apartment.
8-Number of days before I head back out to western Nebraska for my son's graduation.
10-Number of hamsters it takes to power the lights and appliances in Spudville, Idaho.
104-Number of friends I now have in my FF network.
115-Population of Spudville, Idaho after two more cats were born. LMA
149-Number of members on my discussion group on FF.
150-MPH I'm going to need to run when Spudrina reads this blog. LMAO | |
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| Assertion. |
Apr 25, 2006 4:05 pm
Mood: contemplative, 951 Views |  | I think that if ever there was a personal weakness that I have it has been my lack of assertiveness in my life.
Although it sounds very noble it is actually serious character flaw not to assert oneself. Several of my dearest friends on here in my opinion have a similar problem. They don't know when to say no or they back off when someone else steps forward. There are some people who if they see you back off they will keep advancing forward figuring you're surrendering to their authority.
While this has the advantage of avoiding major physical aggression or conflicts it also has some serious drawbacks as well. One of the biggest is that when you don't stand and say firmly what you're feeling you accept that the other person's conduct did NOT upset you or that you didn't care enough to say that it did. Soon you begin to secretly resent the fact that another person is upsetting you and that you still don't want to face them and assert yourself.
Eventually the anger can burn a hole in your heart and destroy your feelings even for someone you always thought you loved. Not only that usually passive unassertive people reach a boiling point and they blow up or lose it. At that point the person they blow up at is wondering what they did to make you so angry.
What is assertiveness. Assertiveness is NOT being aggressive. Assertiveness is also NOT being passive. Assertiveness is not running away or hiding it when something bothers you. When you are assertive you calmly and politely tell the person that they are bothering you and why. You don't say it meanly but you don't say it meekly either. You stand your ground, you tell it like it is without intention to hurt feelings. There is no anger expressed in being assertive. In fact assertive behaviors if done correctly actually reduce anger for both parties.
I unfortunately was born way too passive as a person. For years I preferred to flee the battlefield rather than to face or confront or assert my feelings. So now here I am still not assertive enough in my own life to do what I really want to do.
I'm better than I used to be but I've still got a long way to go. Funny thing is, it's a lot easier to advise someone ELSE what to do than it is to take action on your own behalf.
Soooooo, are YOU assertive? Or perhaps you're like me, you'd rather spare someone else's feelings than hurt them and prefer to let your own feelings fester and build to a dangerous and potentially damaging level?
There are quite a few tests out there to determine a person's level of assertiveness. You should test yourself sometime and find out if you don't already know.
It took me nearly my entire life to realize my character flaw was a lack of assertiveness. It wasn't until I took a class for my Master's program back in June 2004, that I realized only too late what a fool I'd been all of these years for not standing up for myself and saying what I was feeling or thinking. Still, I can't do anything about it now. In fact I'm really only slightly better than I was all of those other years, possibly due to the discovery of my problem. Things ARE going to change a LOT for me in the next year I will say that. I made a vow to myself in 2004 that I would NEVER return to the kind of life and unhappiness I was in at that time. Stay tuned to see how assertive I can become in the next year. |
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| Time For Shouts on a Monday Night. :) |
Apr 24, 2006 8:21 pm
Mood: thoughtful, 1007 Views |  | Okay well I haven't done them for awhile so here are some shouts for my friends. If you want to be included to be hollered at let me know. Apologies to anyone if I forget you, I swear it's not deliberate.
Ari-You are a ray of happy sunlight most of the time. You are cherished, you are special, you mean a lot to a lot of people.
Moony-It is SUCH a pleasure to have you back blogging again. I love your sweet little giggle.
Jeannie-I'm so glad you're back from Spain and also that you finally got your computer fixed.
Lynney-You know I didn't think ANYONE had as much time off of work as I did until you proved me wrong last week. LOL!
Carolyn-I'm so glad you didn't really quit FF, because it would contradict my belief that we're all addicted to this place. LOL!
Carole-Back with a vengeance I see little Amazonia. I missed you actually, there was no one shorter than me except for Lynney around. LOL!
Dionne-Great to see you posting to the blogs again. I really enjoy reading your entries. hehehehe Waylan LIVES
Emma-I'm amazed at how quickly you've adapted to your new home and your new life. Keep up the great work.
Cindela-Thanks for reminding me that I'm not the only one who is totally freaked by dentists. LOL!
HR-Nice to see you starting to blog a lot more. You are a very interesting writer. |
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| Back From My Road Trip. :) |
Apr 23, 2006 7:26 pm
Mood: tired, 873 Views |  | Well I'm back at home tonight after driving home today most of the day. I left this morning at about 9:00 AM Mountain time but I lost an hour going back to Central time so on the road I spent 7.5 hours getting back.
It's actually a lovely, scenic relaxing drive and I made good time because the roads are practically deserted for the first 4 hours of the trip.
Last night I saw my son in a one act play that was presented with 4 other one act plays. They were all very good actually and my son did a good job.
After the plays ended at 10:00 PM we coasted over to briefly check out the battle of the bands which was about over. We decided to go downtown and club again although we stayed at only one place until about 12:30 PM.
After I got back I got online for a bit and talked to some people as well as posted a poem on my blog. A certain Potato Princess and I had a nice IM conversation. LOL!
I have to go back in two weeks because my son graduates. Next time though I'll probably take the Friday before off so I can take my time rather than trying to drive from 3:00 PM on. |
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| A Brucey Poem from the light side. :) |
Apr 22, 2006 5:59 pm
Mood: naughty, 1040 Views | Gaze in eyes
Hands encircle neck
Lost in rapture
Romantic kiss
Standing up
Weakening in knees
Dazed with passion
Lustful ideas
Falls to floor
Robe uncovers beauty
Touch of lust
Burns hotly
Bodies entangle
Arms and legs entwine
Hours go past
Wakes smiling
Has to leave
Parting is difficult
Wants to stay
Causes tear | |
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| Woohoo Brucey's Saturday Road Trip Report. :) |
Apr 22, 2006 1:10 pm
Mood: adventurous, 939 Views | Well it's a beautiful warm sunny Spring day here as I blog on the campus of my son's college here in good old western Nebraska. I've gotta be careful cause I'm 450 miles closer to the Spud Princess than normal and she might fling a potato at me if I'm not careful. LOL!
Hehehehe I arose at the bright and lively hour of 10:44 AM. I went and paid for my son's cap and gown for graduation in two weeks and then walked over to see the mural on the wall of the library coffeeshop that he has been working on. It is awesome. Hehehehe it's a Starbuck's Coffeeshop believe it or not. The only Starbucks in western Nebraska that I know about. LOL!
Hmmmm right now obviously I'm on FF doing a blog. We went to a nice Mexican restaurant in town and ate lunch just after 11:00. I had a beef burrito, enchilada and Taquito. It was so much I couldn't eat it all.
We came back and watched a cheesy movie on tv and now tonight at 7:30 PM I go to see him in his one act play.
After that I'm not sure, there's a battle of the bands going on here so maybe we'll check that out, or maybe we'll go to the establishments for refreshments again tonight although I have to get up and leave by 9:00 AM tomorrow to get back in time to complete my hours at my other job. | |
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