| The Belief It Can Never Happen To Me |
Jul 15, 2008 11:07 pm
315 Views | Ever notice how we all go around believing the bad things that happen will never happen to you? Well, I for all the wrong reasons, took things for granted until two nights ago.
I attended trivia and games night at a place I've gone regularly for over ten years. My friends and I were having a good time. We were so engrossed in our own jolly laughter and fun, we ignored the man who came in and sat down next to us.
With my back at an angle to him, my draft beer on that side, I didn't pay him much attention. We exchanged a few pleasantries and I went back to the trivia. About 1/4 of the way into my beer, I felt ill and odd. My friends made sure I got to my car and I headed home.
Before I got in my driveway, I realized something was really wrong. I had not drank enough to feel so out of it , yet I could barely hold my head up. Three hours later I woke up. I have no recollection of those three hours and I barely remember getting home.
The stranger had obviously put something in my beer. The only reason, I didn't fall victim to worse was because I immediately realized I was ill and left. I had not drank enough for it to take full effect Thank God.
For all my life, I never thought it could happen to me because I was always so cautious. I realize now how very easy it is to become victim to those using the date rape drugs.
Do whatever you have to do to protect yourself. Never let your drink out of site and always leave with someone you trust. Never doubt you can become a victim, you can and it happens everyday in all the places you wouldn't think it does.
I no longer foolishly believe it can't happen to me. It can and it did. PLEASE! PLEASE, DON'T MAKE MY MISTAKE... | |
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| I Miss You |
Jul 13, 2008 8:27 pm
309 Views | Until recently, I don't think I truly understood what missing you really meant. I always thought it was something someone said for the sake of having something to say without having to say I love you or I need you. Worse, it was just a casual whatever thought people used just because.
Now, I know that saying to someone you miss them, it really is signficant. Missing someone can be a lover, a spouse, a close friend, an old friend, a parent or a sibling. The missing part is that you really do enjoy time you have with that person, no matter how much or how little you spend together and miss it when they are not around.
Missing you really means, I think of you often and wish we had more time together. Missing you really means, I hope you are well. Missing you really means, don't forget to call.
But more than anything, missing you really means, I'm glad you are part of my life and I wouldn't want it any other way.
So, at the end of the day...
I miss you. | |
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| My |
Jul 10, 2008 10:22 pm
277 Views | For my special friend, you have touched my life in a way I never thought possible. You have made me laugh again, cry again, and feel good about myself again. But more than anything, you reminded me that you can't feel special if you don't have special people in our lives.
Thank you for making me feel special and for allowing me to make you feel special too.
For allowing both of us to be ourselves together.
I even have become used to the constant picking on me about the weather here and allowing me to pick on you about your to-do list.
You are my good friend, my special friend, and one that will be in my life for as long as you want to remain and our cell phones continue to allow unlimited calls!
Sleep well my friend... you have made my life better for knowing you. | |
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| They Stare Right At You |
Jul 9, 2008 1:54 pm
Mood: amused, 279 Views | Today, I was out for a cup of coffee and I realize that the person next to me was staring right at me. Not a casual kind of glance, but going out of her way to look as close at me as she could.
Anyway, as I ordered my beverage, I moved to the back of the line to wait. This woman turned and continued to stare at me intently. After five minutes more of this, I lost it and asked her if there was a problem. She politely said no. However, she still continued staring.
Finally, after looking directly back at her, I took off my baseball cap and asked her if the view was better. She didn't stop staring and actually took another look. So, I walked up to her and asked her if I was close enough to her for her to get a complete description to take back to whom ever she was going to tell. She finally looked down, never apologized, got her drink and left.
After she left, I put my baseball cap back on and proceeded to get my drink. I left the store, got in my car and as I was backing out, there she was again. Staring.
Dang what do I have to do - where a shirt that says I'm proud of having lost my hair and it doesn't grow back as fast as it fell out? She made me realize that people are rude, snobbish, hateful, mean and hurtful to people who may have things going on in their lives they don't understand.
So for those who are wondering why I even left the house with out my wig... it gets freaking hot under the wig during the summer. Plus, it gets old having to keep it in place looking just right when all you want to do is run a quick errand and grab a coffee.
Thank goodness I recognized the woman after I left, she's my next door neighbor's mother. I can't wait for the next time she's sun bathing in the back yard.... do you think I should stare or say excuse me?
Wigless today and just happy to be here to enjoy the idiots of the world. | |
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| Knowing What to Say |
Jul 8, 2008 9:38 pm
Mood: depressed, 321 Views | Knowing what to say to someone is not always easy. Today, a friend of mine had services to bury her 19 year old son. For the first time, I realized that knowing what to say was not what I really wanted to know, but did know because we have now both lost children.
Today it was so hard to look at her and know that whatever I said to her was exactly what she wanted to hear. She knew in her heart, I knew exactly what she was feeling inside. I hated being the person who knew what to say.
And now hours later sitting at home and remembering my own loss, her loss and the loss of others, I now understand that unless you have lost a child you really don't know what to say.
What a terrible bond to share with someone, the bond of losing a child. The only good from it is that someone can know what to say.
My dear friend, you are in my heart, you are in my thoughts and prayers, you will be suffering in silence and will not think anyone understands, but I will.
I love you my friend... always | |
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| Just for Today |
Jul 3, 2008 8:51 am
Mood: Peaceful at Heart, 261 Views | Life goes by sooooo fast we often forget to enjoy the little things around us.....
so Just for Today I want to enjoy:
The sounds of children at play;
The sounds of birds singing in the trees;
The sounds of Mollie chasing squirrels;
The sounds of my fingers on my key board emailing friends;
But most of all, just for today:
I want to enjoy the beauty of friends;
the beauty of the sunset, and the stars in the sky.
Today, just for today, I want to enjoy being a part of this beautiful moment in time... to recapture the joy, the beauty and the mystery of it all, for no other reason than just to say,
Just for today, I did stop and enjoy.
May all of you enjoy the day and all it has to offer... if just for today. | |
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| Acts of Kindness |
Jul 2, 2008 5:33 am
Mood: giddy, 255 Views | We've all heard a million times that random acts of kindness are the best things to give and to receive. While I've always practiced random acts of kindness toward others, I've never been the recipient of one until this past weekend.
This beautiful woman, in heart and soul, gave me a random act of kindness. She unselfishly gave me a weekend of unbelievable kindness, the ability to laugh freely, be myself again, and enjoy the moments of the day. She and I have never met in person, or even talked on the phone, but her gift will mean more to me than any gift I have ever received.
If only every one could find the ability to share from the heart to a complete stranger. I applaud what she gave me and hope that someday, I can return the act of kindness to her.
Having never thought about the act of kindness before outside of doing something nice, I can honestly say now, that they do mean something far greater than a passing moment in the recipient's life. They touch a place their heart that has been long missing, a belief in the human race again.
May all of you find it in your hearts to share a random act of kindness with a total stranger. It can be something as simple as buying the guy behind you in line a cup of coffee or paying the the lady in the car behind you in the drive thru's meal. While it seems trival sounding, it does touch their day and they do remember what you do, even if they have no face or name to put with it.
To the woman who gave me an act of kindness, she touched my heart forever because no one could ever take away my weekend of joy and happiness. She will always remain an Angel in my heart... always... even nameless and faceless. Only she knows who she is.
Try it... your act of kindness today may change a person's day for the rest of their lives - in a good way. | |
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| Grabbing Hold |
Jun 24, 2008 3:50 pm
Mood: calm, 310 Views | Love. Love is an amazing thing. It can give you the biggest and greatest joy of your life and the biggest and greatest disappointment in your life too. Odd isn't it. We all crave that four letter word to be a part of our lives, but we rarely look at it when it is right before our very eyes.
Sometimes in the midst of looking so hard for it, we fail to see what is right there offered to us. Love has a way of catching us off guard when we least expect it, and then, we run instead of grabbing hold of it.
To those like myself, don't run, grab hold and treasure the time, even if it is only for a short while. It's better to enjoy the time than to live a life of never grabbing hold of the one thing we crave so much. | |
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| A True Friend |
Jun 22, 2008 2:11 pm
Mood: grateful, 318 Views | Ever wonder what makes a true friend a true friend?
For me, it is the person who shares their life with me unselfishly. The good and bad, the joys and sorrows, the happy and sad, the oh my and what were you thinking moments.
It's the knowledge that there is no room for regrets, no judgments, no condemnation from this person. It's the acceptance of who you are and who they are...
And together,
You face life's challenges, You share laughter
You share tears of joy,You share tears of sadness
You share moments you wouldn't share with another
But together,
You have a person to lean on, You have a strength you didn't realize, You have a force to be reckoned with, You have a gift of the heart
You have a life of memories
And together,
There is nothing you can't do with the help of a true friend.
Thank God for those people who are your true friends. They get you where you need to be when you can't even see the road you are on. | |
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| Find a Better Pick Up Line Please!!! |
Jun 22, 2008 12:49 pm
Mood: amused, 301 Views | This is for the man who refuses to accept that I'm not 16 still, don't want to be 16 again, and I do love being 46. I don't want to relive memories over from 16 everyday, I want new memories and ones that are truly meaningful at this point in my life. Selfish - absolutely, but why settle for less than happiness?
For those who don't normally read my blog, I realize this is a weird blog, but let's all face it. The first thing you write to a person is what makes a person want to either talk to you or not. At the end of the day, I would rather be 46, not 16 again, and have a real relationship with someone. A relationship that could be mutually rewarding, intellectually stimulating, and well, the rest is icing on the cake, right?
There is nothing worse that getting five emails in one day on here from the same guy who refers to me as "Dixie Chick" and "Hiya Cutie" in one line. Worse is ....
"Hiya Cutie... I feel like I'm in HS again!" "Oh Yeah Babe"..."Me and You".
I realize that in the world of online dating that things are a little different. However, if you read my profile, I shared what I like and don't like, what I'm looking for, and why. Surely, if you wanted to get to know me, you would have found something in all the information I provided to have a few lines to converse about with me without insulting me.
Now I realize for the sake of argument here, I may be harsh here in my view point, but how does a "Oh Yeah Babe..." come on in your mind make me want to seriously get to know you? It doesn't because it tells me you didn't take the time to see what was important to me, it tells me you are writing to everyone hoping to connect with someone - anyone. Anyone...
At the end of the day, I am still me, I still like me, and I am completely okay with me. Not looking to change for a relationship, and not willing to settle for what is less than real...
If for whatever reason you still think I need a "personality," then that's okay too. I have one and I like the one I have - I'm multi-faceted, funny at times, sad at times, love my friends dearly, sassy, confident, have a sense of humor, can be entertaining, and I am able to realize that staying true to myself is better than reliving my teenage years just for a date. | |
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