| LET ME JUST CRY |
May 6, 2008 8:10 pm
4848 Views | What i feel right now???
Numb.
Crushed.
Loneliness.
Floats in nothingness.
Brokenhearted.
Feels like a trash, just like yesterday's newspaper just thrown out of the window.
I cant eat. I dont want to talk. No work, no
chats, no phones, away from everything....away from everybody, away from the world.
I just want to be alone, all alone right now, alone by myself.
Alone in my own world. Cry all day. But I dont want to cry anymore, because crying will just make it worse, even worst. How I wish those tears will just stop by itself.
Theres so much pain in my heart.
Too much pain. How I wish feelings evaporate overnight.
I know Iam strong. A strong woman, but why I feel weak , helpless,and numb.
I just dont know why...I dont understand.
I know one day, I strongly believe, that I'll be okay...but the question is when and how?
I know these pains will fade away someday.
This is just another heartache , not a heart attack, Im sure, I wont die.
After these pains, life goes on...but for now let me just cry. | |
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| MY FAVORITE SONG |
May 3, 2008 10:38 pm
4397 Views | I LOVE YOU (by AMY BELLE)
close your eyes what do you see on the inside
a long remembered memory of tears once cried
of a different place and a different time
and its long ago and far away on the other side
tomorrow was yesterday
the truth was denied
in a different place and a different time
and we're here now
all you have to know is I'am close
and I will never go
I understand all the pain you've been through
if you hear nothing else, hear this ....
I LOVE YOU
through it all and in between
a voice from the past
in your days and in your dreams
a question to ask
do you know how it feels to be under the wheels?
and we're here now
all you have to know is I'am close
and i will never go
I understand all the pain you've been through
if you hear nothing else, hear this.....
I LOVE YOU
your hard times are over
your long roller coaster ride
draws to an end
now that you're mine....
and we're here now
and all you have to know is I'am close
and i will never go
so sorry for all the pain you've been through
if you hear nothing else hear this..
ILOVE YOU.
close your eyes what do you see
on the inside???? | |
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| IS THERE REALLY ALWAYS AND FOREVER? |
Apr 21, 2008 7:36 pm
11197 Views | Cant you see,
what youve done to me
A future filled with fear,
Afraid to let anyone near
I held your heart so dear,
thought I saw your soul so clear
Yet it seems I was blind
and now, no hope, I can find.
When my love is true.
Iam left not knowing what to do.
While you follow your own selfish heart
Iam left here alone, just falling apart
A broken soul, no longer quite whole
A handfull of shattered dreams
And knowing that nothing is as it seems
I float in nothingness,
feeling lost in hopelessness,
Knowing my love wasn't good enough,
looking down a road of rough.
My heart aches with pain
shivering in the frozen rain.
Haunting memories from the past
telling me nothing, not even love, ,lasts.
Yet you do not care.
You went away out there
Never looking back to see,
how your cruelty has broken me
Leaving me drained and scared
Remembering all we shared.
Was it all really lies?
Now All I can do is cry
And always wonder why
...IS THERE REALLY ALWAYS AND FOREVER?......... | |
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| THE CHOICE TO CHANGE |
Apr 21, 2008 2:14 am
7176 Views | Any day we wish; we can discipline ourselves to change it all. Any day we wish; we can open the book that will open our mind to new knowledge. Any day we wish; we can start a new activity. Any day we wish; we can start the process of life change. We can do it immediately, or next week, or next month, or next year.
We can also do nothing. We can pretend rather than perform. And if the idea of having to change ourselves makes us uncomfortable, we can remain as we are. We can choose rest over labor, entertainment over education, delusion over truth, and doubt over confidence. The choices are ours to make. But while we curse the effect, we continue to nourish the cause. As Shakespeare uniquely observed, "The fault is not in the stars, but in ourselves." We created our circumstances by our past choices. We have both the ability and the responsibility to make better choices beginning today. Those who are in search of the good life do not need more answers or more time to think things over to reach better conclusions. They need the truth. They need the whole truth. And they need nothing but the truth.
We cannot allow our errors in judgment, repeated every day, to lead us down the wrong path. We must keep coming back to those basics that make the biggest difference in how our life works out. And then we must make the very choices that will bring life, happiness and joy into our daily lives.
And if I may be so bold to offer my last piece of advice for someone seeking and needing to make changes in their life - If you don't like how things are, change it! You're not a tree. You have the ability to totally transform every area in your life - and it all begins with your very own power of choice. | |
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| CHARACTER...... |
Apr 21, 2008 2:12 am
6972 Views | Could creating your character be likened to an artist creating a sculpture? In my opinion, I believe that character is not something that just happens by itself, any more than a chisel can create a work of art without the hand of an artist guiding it. In both instances, a conscious decision for a specific outcome has been made. A conscious process is at work. Character is the result of hundreds and hundreds of choices you make that gradually turn who you are, at any given moment, into who you want to be. If that decision-making process is not present, you will still be somebody. You will still be alive, but may have a personality rather than a character.
Character is not something you were born with and can't change like your fingerprint. In fact, because you weren't born with it, it is something that you must take responsibility for creating. I don't believe that adversity by itself builds character and I certainly don't think that success erodes it. Character is built by how you respond to what happens in your life. Whether it's winning every game or losing every game. Getting rich or dealing with hard times. You build character out of certain qualities that you must create and diligently nurture within yourself. Just like you would plant and water a seed or gather wood and build a campfire. You've got to look for those things in your heart and in your gut. You've got to chisel away in order to find them. Just like chiseling away the rock in order to create the sculpture that has previously existed only in your imagination.
But do you want to know the really amazing thing about character? If you are sincerely committed to making yourself into the person you want to be, you'll not only create those qualities, but you'll continually strengthen them. And you will recreate them in abundance even as you are drawing on them every day of your life. Just like the burning bush in the biblical book of Exodus, the bush burned but the flames did not consume it. Character sustains itself and nurtures itself even as it is being put to work, tested, and challenged. And once character is formed, it will serve as a solid, lasting foundation upon which to build the life you desire | |
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| ATTITUDE ....ATTITUDE |
Apr 21, 2008 2:05 am
6797 Views | The process of human change begins within us. We all have tremendous potential. We all desire good results from our efforts. Most of us are willing to work hard and to pay the price that success and happiness demand.
Each of us has the ability to put our unique human potential into action and to acquire a desired result. But the one thing that determines the level of our potential, that produces the intensity of our activity, and that predicts the quality of the result we receive is our attitude.
Attitude determines how much of the future we are allowed to see. It decides the size of our dreams and influences our determination when we are faced with new challenges. No other person on earth has dominion over our attitude. People can affect our attitude by teaching us poor thinking habits or unintentionally misinforming us or providing us with negative sources of influence, but no one can control our attitude unless we voluntarily surrender that control.
No one else "makes us angry." We make ourselves angry when we surrender control of our attitude. What someone else may have done is irrelevant. We choose, not they. They merely put our attitude to a test. If we select a volatile attitude by becoming hostile, angry, jealous or suspicious, then we have failed the test. If we condemn ourselves by believing that we are unworthy, then again, we have failed the test.
If we care at all about ourselves, then we must accept full responsibility for our own feelings. We must learn to guard against those feelings that have the capacity to lead our attitude down the wrong path and to strengthen those feelings that can lead us confidently into a better future.
If we want to receive the rewards the future holds in trust for us, then we must exercise the most important choice given to us as members of the human race by maintaining total dominion over our attitude. Our attitude is an asset, a treasure of great value, which must be protected accordingly. Beware of the vandals and thieves among us who would injure our positive attitude or seek to steal it away.
Having the right attitude is one of the basics that success requires. The combination of a sound personal philosophy and a positive attitude about ourselves and the world around us gives us an inner strength and a firm resolve that influences all the other areas of our existence. | |
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| AND ALL ALONE |
Apr 3, 2008 11:53 pm
9901 Views | AND ALL ALONE
Alone to cry
Alone to laugh
Alone to smile
Alone to frown
Alone to live
Alone to die
Alone to wander
Alone to discover
Alone to learn
Alone to live
Alone in pain
Alone in hurt
Alone in joy
Alone in the morning
Alone in the night
Alone in the afternoon
Alone in this life
Alone in this world
Alone in boredom
Alone in knowledge
Alone in this state
Alone with people
Alone at work
Alone right now
Alone when I was born
And alone when I will die
Alone walking through life
Without any pride
How can you be satisfied
Living your life like you do
When you know there is some one out there
Who could really use a friend like you
No one will know how I live
No one will know who I am
No one will ever get to know me
Because I am destined to spend my life alone
I am always alone.
It’s no fun to be alone
To do everything on your own
To live with no recognition
To share my pride with no one
Wanting to have someone
To live my life with
But for now
I will continue alone
And all alone | |
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| JOURNEY OF MY LIFE |
Apr 3, 2008 11:45 pm
8196 Views | I am in a big journey
I am walking all alone
I saw many faces during the journey
Some travelled with me a while
They gave water and food
I reached half the way
For here onwards it's difficult
There is a lots path in front of me
I have to choose one there is no return
I have to select the best path
I like a path, no one has travelled so far
My path is difefrent, everyone said
everyone says, ' dont go '
But I have to go through that path
There is a lot of humps and gutters in that
I can see it from here itself
I know no one follows me
But I will make the journey of my life | |
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| MY ENDLESS JOURNEY |
Apr 3, 2008 11:37 pm
Mood: crushed, 8179 Views | My endless journey.........
I am fed up with dreams of my future
I want reality in my life with love
Looking forward to end my troubles
But life seems to be endless journey
I want to drift through eternity
I want to see the light that brightens me
Looking forward to end my fear
But life seems to be endless journey
I want to bury my worries forever
I want to draw the power from my soul
Looking forward to end my tears
But life seems to be endless journey | |
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