Missnow Palace
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Mar 23, 2009 7:34 pm
Mood: calm,
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Hi everyone here on ff! This is Palace Missnow age 21 from China who lives in Missnow Palace now. Nice to meet all you guys here online. If you are interested in making friends with me too, plz do add me on em es en for the name as cheer.snow at hote male(Plz do remember that there is a dot in the middle!). Right there waiting for you!......Love and kisses
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My Mr. Banana Pineapple
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Sep 4, 2009 8:03 pm
Mood: depressed,
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Last April he was a fool
Just that day I met you
I said hey my name's May
You can call me baby honey sweety
No no no no. I can't help you
Cos I am Banana Pineapple
Gonna be busy on the TV show
Bye bye and thanks for saying hello
If you are with me, then we'll be happy
And you can see that right through me
Don't set me free but please believe
Your smile is my heart's only key
Cos I love you Mr. Banana Pineapple
And I know that I am not a fool
Be mine.
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When Thinking of You
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Sep 4, 2009 7:56 pm
Mood: depressed,
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When winter comes to you,
Do you feel its coldness?
When love falls upon you,
Do you feel my heart?
When stars show up at night,
Will you also look into the sky?
When I am right here thinking of you,
Will you also remember the past?
When sun rises in the morning,
Have you woken up from your sweet dreams?
When I am writing this to you,
Are you also thinking of me, my love?
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If Only I Could Fly
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Sep 4, 2009 7:50 pm
Mood: depressed,
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Time goes so slowly by
When the sun never shine
I no longer have you by my side
Darkness is so horrible at night
Even stars won't sleep in the sky
Wishing that you could hold me tight
Finally I wait for you till sunrise
However the sea is too large in size
Oh my love far away if only I could fly
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Line of hurt&love for him
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Mar 23, 2009 7:49 pm
Mood: excited,
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I guess that everyone in the world will surely have this kind of line which will hurt you someday somewhere. When there are a lot of different people come to ask you to go out, you choose to be alone and stay where you were before. Maybe you are just enjoying yourself being lonely, or there might be another kind of thing: You are missing and waiting for someone right there, where you met each other for the first time.
I think I am really falling in love with him now. Though I have known that it will be another disaster for me, I believe that I have no other choice but loving him.
I don't know his No. as a man for cheating on me. And I don't know what's going on him.
I am so lonely when I am waiting for him all the time on the way. I am so busy when I am missing him a lot. It seems that I have nothing else to do in my life but thinking of him. Even he is so unreal for me, just a kind of dream that has never become a reality.
Oh baby, where are you and what are you doing now? Have you forgotten all about me? Why not try to contact with me if you can feel me? Have you disapeared in the world? No, plz don't, never. I can't live without you. I can't accept losing you. Plz do not leave me alone here in the world, ok? Be together with me and let me feel that. Come to me in the night and hold me tightly in your arms and never set me alone here again. Plz take me away when you go next step.
Oh my god, can you make another promise to me that he is still in love with me? Will you do me a favor, as I am your honest kid.
Time passes by so slowly and sadly without him in my life. I tried every way to find him, but I failed all the way. How can I keep someone whom I love so much? What else can I give more? Will you share your everything with me as you have promised to me baby? Are you still there living for me too?
Maybe it is true that the end of love is death. When I can't hold your fingers in my hands anymore, baby, will you stop to say goodbye to me? Will you remember next season?
I am so sad and despair now. Even before that I had wished that hope was still with me so that I could move on again. But how about now? I choose to wait for him only. I don't know where my future is and what my tomorrow is like. I thought that my love for him would be everlasting. But now I am not sure again. Cos without him, I don't know how to.
How I wish that I could go through his heart directly and feel his beating! How I wish that I could be with him all the time that I would never miss any second or moment with him! How I will that he would love him so much like what I am doing now!
He is the first man that I wanna give all myself to.
He is the one that I wanna be together all my life.
He is the last man that I wanna fall in love with.
He is the one that I wanna kiss and make love with.
He is the only one that I wanna marry with and have kids with.
He is the only one that I wanna hold tightly all the way.
He is the only one that I wanna love forever.
He is the only one that I wanna die for.
He is the only one that makes me get old.
He is the only one that makes me forget all about myself.
He is the only one that I wanna give my everything to.
He is the only one that I will never forget in my whole lifetime.
I met him in April 14, 2008 and it was such a lovely day in my history. I was interested in him the first sight I took on him. Even we had been in the different classes then. Also there were so many other girls like me who want him. They were even more beautiful than me and better than me. So I was not confident at all then. But I still told him that I wanna know more about him and make friends with him. I sent a lot of messages to him saying that I liked him. But at first I didn't get any responses from him. I thought he was not interested in me at all, which was so natural. But one day I suddenly got one message back that made me so exsited. He told me that it was not able to reply me back cos of my settings, which stopped him from appoaching me. More importantly, he also told me that he liked me too.
That day I became his girl. At least in my eyes cos he asked me if I had a bf then. I said no and asked that if I had a chance with him. He said of course yes and what about me and if he had a chance with me also. I answered sure he did! It was Oct 10th, 2008. Before that I told him that I had been known him since April. The truth was that I had just decided to forget another guy and kick him away from me.
But I had to go home at once for daddy's call. Even I didn't wanna seperate from him. All I had to do is wait for another chance, which is given by god. And I hope then he will still remember in his heart, just like I would think of him every day and night at home.
I was trying to say happy birthday to him on Jan 6th, 2009, but I had to stay at home. Even I had put him into my heart during daily life.
The other day before I came back to school, I went to a net bar with my father. I met him at last online but I had no time to talk to him even just to say hello. I didn't know if he had seen me, but knowing that he was still in the world made me so happy then.
In Feb 23th, 2009 I was here again, finally. But I had to wait for March. Before that I went to a free bar to send messages to him and days later he replied me back. I was so happy that he still remembered me and thought that I had forgotten about him. Oh my love, how could I have forgotten about you since you have been living in my heart since the day I knew you!
Days later we finally talked to each other and both of us were so happy and excited that we met at last. It was so difficult for us being together and we both appreciated a lot for that we had found each other in the world, in this large and complicated world with so many complex people.
Anyway, I love him!
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What's Wrong On Earth?
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Nov 4, 2009 4:29 am
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I just watched the movie called “Baby Sisters” and I was tollly shocked at last! What’s wrong with the world itself on earth?
The highschool girl student works very hard for his tuition in college in an inlegal way. She sells not only herself but also runs the selling “bussiness” if we can call it this name. She takes some guys to beat the girl and her customer for she doesn’t obey her rules of giving her 20% to her and does things behind her back. At last she finds out that the customer in fact her own father. This is really a crazy world completely out of my imagination. How can it be like this and why?
I never understand. Who can tell me?
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Angles' Hearts waiting Out There behind the Hill
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Nov 4, 2009 3:47 am
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I have been watching a lot of movies recently, both home and abroad. But I don’t wanna really write something about that. Maybe most of them were too far away from me, or I just forgot them the next day. However, I can’t stop thinking about this one since last night called ”Angel’s Heart” and I must do something for it.
It’s a simple story directed by a guy who was born in the 1980s. The story is made in memory of those who have been teaching in small poor villages in south of China and also given as a special present for them.
A young college graduate girl wants to continue her research about education problems in mountain area countryside. So she tries her best to apply for teaching for 3 months far away from the city. She has a boyfriend who used to study aboard and came back in college time. They were very much in love with each other before they came to the small village together. The girl says that it was a love test between them. She tells him that if he can stay with her for that 3 months, then she will marry him at once when they come back home. The boy was quite sure of himself with that cos he thought he loved the girl very much and he would love to scarify for her. He never thought the difficulties would be so out of his imagination.
On the train to the village, they were still very excited about what was gonna happen to them. They called their friends to tell them the big news on the empty train till it stopped at a very beautiful place. There was a small truck pulled by a cow. They were still singing on the way for the nice trip, if only it was only a travel trip.
The head of the village waited in the entrance of the village and gave them a very big and warm welcome in a very funny way in our eyes. He was speaking his native language but not madrin and he looked stupid as well. There were big and deep time marks on his forehead and his teeth were dark brown and some of them were broken. His face was the color like a burnt skin. They were both shocked by him as well. He introduced the head teacher who was also the only teacher there to them. The head teacher called all the 18 kids in the school together and they gathered in a very impressive way. One of them carried a pig in his arms with a box cos there was nobody else at his house and it might be stolen; another took the cow there cos his mom asked him to feed it with grass on the hill after that. When they were all welcoming to the new teachers, the cow suddenly ran away and they had to chase it around. The chickens were frightened as well.
There used to be another teacher from a big city who served here for free for about 2 months. She taught the kids in a completely different way, like the Britain and American. All the kids loved her a lot and when she had to leave there at last, all the kids cried out loudly. The kids became smarter than before and it was even more difficult for the head teacher to educate them cos of the comparison. Both the head of the village and he were afraid of the same thing happening again, so they tried very hard not to let the new teachers in charge of main lessons like Chinese or Math. Meanwhile, the girl’s boyfriend was totally astonished by the surroundings and he never stopped looking for fun himself. The signals were pretty bad there and he even fell down to the ground when he climbed a ladder to the roof to make a call about football competition. Even he tried to play football with the kids; it still couldn’t help at all about his loneliness and boringness. They never had meat since he went there cos it was not in a festival and at first he quite much liked it for it helped losing weight, but later on it turned very terrible. So he asked the head teacher to kill the cow or even some chicken for meat, but the head teacher told him that the cow must live for working on the farm and the chicken have to stay for the eggs and the eggs have to be sold for the text books for the kids. But he still wanted them badly so one day he took some risks and chased after the chicken. The result was that he was caught by the dog and got a bite from it as well. When after all of this he came to his girlfriend for comfort, she just said that he deserved all. She had been very cold to him cos she was still worrying about how to teach main lessons there. He wrote a letter to the head teacher and asked him to let the girl be in charge but it didn’t work out. They even thought of a way to vote for the Chinese teacher and all the kids chose the head teacher cos he asked them to. Later the girl got an unknown letter about the truth and finally she took the charge. Of course at last we know that the one who wrote this was in fact a little boy who never spoke since his father heat him badly and seriously after drunk. When the girl was enjoying all of this and felt great of herself, the boy was still bored of the life and it became more and more difficult for him to continue. One day he went near a lake and there was a man fishing. He asked him, is there any fish here in the water? The man replied in a certain voice, yes, sure. He didn’t come back to school when it was very late at night and the girl was quite worried about him. When she was about to shout at the head teacher for she thought it was him who hid her boyfriend again to force them to leave her boyfriend showed up in the dark distance in a very disappointed mood. They asked him where he had been and what he had done. He told them that he went to a lake but didn’t get any fish till too late. “But the man near the lake told me that there is! “ He said. “You mean the man who has been crazy for years?” The headteacher said. “Yeah. I finally knew it at last.”
He went to the room to pack his luggage but the girl wouldn’t allow him to go. She held her in her arms tightly and he stayed in her bed that night. Before that he was arranged to sleep with the headteacher and he kept on complaining about his snoring and moving around. In the morning she went out to climb the mountain with the kids when he was still sleeping like a baby. When they were happily playing there, the head of the village ran there and told her that her boyfriend just left. She ran to the station immediately and when she got there, it began to rain very heavily. But she couldn’t stop him when he said this: “Yeah, You are right. I am a big fool since the day I came here, just like the one who keeps on fishing in a lake without any fish! I wanna go home now and I miss my family!” “Then how about our love?” She asked. He didn’t say anything but cried out tears. The girl fell down to the ground when she walked back to the village and she woke up in a hospital. The biggest girl in the class was there as well as the headteacher. They talked a lot about how he became a teacher and why. He said that he felt so proud like a general when speaking on the stage. One day the biggest girl suddenly disappeared and she told him that she had gone to work in the city. He got very angry for that and later on told her the truth. He said the girl’s father died cos of him. His father got deaf when he was young kid playing fire on the street. Then he went to the city to work and was killed by the truck behind cos he couldn’t hear at all. He said that he must be responsible for the girl and he couldn’t allow her to be like his sister. His sister went to the city to work at first selling things but later on selling bodies. She jumped out of the window in the 18th floor when the police came to catch her. She mistook the window as a door…
The girl teacher’s eyes were wet after hearing this and she went together to the city with him to find her back. He asked her to take some photos for him to find a wife in a dating place at town.
3 months have been over and she had to go back to the city as well. Of course all the kids cried again when saying goodbye.
One day the head of the village came to visit the girl teacher in the city and brought her some fruit in the hill cos she likes them. When she asked him to take some photos back to the headteacher, he told her that he had been dead when trying to fix the wall and roof of the school. She was deeply touched by this and decided to go back there again.
One day two journalists came to the village after hearing her story. They wanted her to tell them something but she wouldn’t like to so they asked her to just take a photo. She was sitting in the chair in the middle in the front when a little kid moved another chair near her and some other kids put some wild flowers on the chair.
That was the end of the story.
I couldn’t forget about it cos it has so much to do with my own dreams. To become a teacher when grow up was the first big dream that I had in my childhood and even it’s too small in others’ eyes. I think maybe someday I will chose to teach like this as well.
For the love part, I think I am very confident of myself in some points as well, especially in the faith for the power of love. I think people can change the world as long as they have got enough love in their hearts. And I also believe that love can make mysterious things happen cos it will bring two completely different persons together and try to be better for each other.
At last, it reminds me of a famous write in Taiwan called Sanmao. She married a guy from Spain and lived together in Sahara for many years. She didn’t choose a way to teach there, but she found a way to live. And the love between them is forever and what I want. He loves her and then he will follow her anywhere anytime till the last moment of his life. He died for her at last when trying to catch some fish in the sea for her and she killed herself as well after his death. She said that without regret and sorry to her parents, she wouldn’t feel so painful at all.
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Let's Make Love Till Sunrise
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Oct 20, 2009 7:30 am
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It's a damn cold winter in a damn cold country. She can 't understand why there are still so many people choose to live here, just like the mysterious secret of her love to him. ¬
The sky is the color of grey, but not the silver one that she has been loved with for a long time. It's called dark grey, the color which makes people wanna die in a boring and disgusting world.¬
The street is unclean and dirty and the houses around look very old much more than traditional. Most of them are quite small and short which makes the road seem to be even wider. The cars are just like those made from the 19th century. There are no trees around at all but only some flowers in a small bottle which make them look like unreal just like her coming to him today.¬
It's 5th of Feb today and she finally left her own country for the only man that she has loved since about 22 months ago when she is gonna to be 22 years old. Everything ever happens to her is just like a dream. His name, his smile, his eyes, his hair, his smile, his career, his home, his girls, his friends, his family, his color, all of them have given her the power of love to bring her finally to him, through mountains and rivers.¬
Before this, she sent him a text to his mobile phone saying that she would arrive at LD at 6pm even she heard the woman saying "This person's phone is switched off, please try later or send a text." She was not sure if he could get it or not, or when he would read it, or where he was exactly. It was a totally adventure to her and she is experiencing the craziest moment of risks right now.¬
She recognized him at once when she got off the waiting gate in the airport and he looked even more handsome than before and much taller. He kept on looking around and smile filled his clean and smooth face after he saw her. She threw the briefcase away and opened her arms. He held her tightly in his arms for a long time and didn't say anything. At that moment she felt so unreal cos this only happened in her dreams before even for so many times. For her, he is not the man that she has been looking for years, but also the star that is gonna guide her world. He took the briefcase using his left hand and held her left hand with his right hand. His eyes never watched anyone else since she showed up in front of him.¬
"Love you and your car." She said this when he put her briefcase in the back box.¬ "But I always wanna have a black car, you know, I love the color of your hair." He smiled as usually when telling her this.¬
"When I changed it into dark brown last year, I was thinking if you would still like me or not." She said.¬
"You can change something for some time only, but something you have is never able to be changed. That's the truly beautiful part of you indeed in fact." He answered.¬
She went to the bathroom to take a long-time shower after the long journey when he was cooking for her in the kitchen. The house was neither too big nor too small in size and it's very clean everywhere. There was the smell of flowers all around.¬ Later when she came out of the bathroom, the house had been full of delicious taste. When she sat down besides the table, she couldn't help herself clapping cos it's kind of art work more than food making. When he watched her eating in an enjoyable way, she asked him, "Why don't you have some as well?" ¬
"It's only for you. I would love to see you all the way." He said as a perfect man. He put his hands beneath his chin with his charming smile on his face. His smile was just like a flower of love in his fingers.¬
She cleaned the dishes when he went to the bathroom. Later on he came out and put the DVD player on and they watched some movies together. He kissed her before he left his room and went to the guest room. In her dreams that night they were watching sunset together near the sea while he stayed up the whole night awake. For him, she was absolutely the best gift that god had brought to him. He knew that he never deserved her love cos he had done anything for her. She loved him much more than he did to her. These made him scared and feel guilty and not confident. If you get something or somebody too easily, you will have to worry about that you might lose them any time.¬
Early in the morning, she woke up and found herself alone in his room. She thought he just got up before her, so she called his name around the house. He heard her voice when he just fell asleep. "I am here." He answered and walked out to the waiting-room. “Did you sleep well last night? Are you hungry now?" "Yeah. Of course. I dreamt about you again. But I am not really hungry yet. Just a little bit. How about you?" "I am just in front of you now, so you don’t have to see me in dreams only. I am feeling starving now. Here is some bread and milk." He went to the kitchen and found out all these things to eat usually for breakfast in the west. "I would love to drink milk but I don’t like bread at all." She said. "All right. Get dressed and let's go out now, ok?" He talked to her gently and she felt herself melt in his softness. She nodded her head lightly and went back to his room.¬
The weather that day was extremely sunny and clean which was a big surprise for her. "Isn't it strange to enjoy so good air here?" She questioned when they walked on the street. "It's the biggest welcome for my young lady from another world." He said, putting on his black coat a little bit up head.¬
"Thank you so much, LD!" She put her hands around her mouth pretending to shout but in fact only two of them heard what she was saying.¬
They found a Chinese restaurant near his house and ordered some traditional dishes.¬
"Have you been here before? Do you always come here?" She asked him when waiting for the dishes.¬
"Not so much before. But I guess I will come more and more later." He said with a sweet but small smile even deeply in his heart he was not sure at all. He didn't know if he would come over someday just for memory or unconsciously. He wanted to remember her, for her pure and deep love; on the other hand, he didn't wanna think of her again cos it would surely make him feel hurt.¬
"Hmmmm, all these things taste so good. I should have come more often before. They are almost new and fresh to me." He said and enjoyed.¬
"Like me?" She suddenly spoke such sad things which made him feel shocked at one point. Immediately she began to feel regret cos he moved on to keep silent like usual. She knew exactly that he was never good at commitment so he never promised her anything. Maybe it's the only thing she couldn't blame on him, she thought, it's my choice and destiny. I am followed by my own desire. It's nothing to do with him. Moreover, he is trying to be nice polite and pitiful to me.¬
He advised to drive her around the city or even the country to show her around even he knew that he was actually the only precious thing there for her. She cared nothing else but him and that's why she was here for him. So she just said, can we just walk around, you and me? ¬
They took a lot of photos around even the scenery was terrible then. She tried to smile but there was still invisible sadness inside her blood and it's her painful pleasure. ¬
Time passed so fast and each hour with him flies like a flash just in one second. They drunk a little in a bar at noon and continued walking in the afternoon. He told her a lot of things on the way, about the city and the country, about his childhood, about his college; about his work...She got to know him more and better. ¬
Evening came finally and she told him how much she loved him since the day she met him and what things she had done for him. She took out the present in her pocket which she made by hand in 3 months day by day night by night point by point with both his name and her name on. It was the picture of two cute pigs being together holding hands together with lights on. She cried out tears at last and her eyes were wet as well. He held her tightly in his arms and kissed her. She hugged him as well and kissed him back. His tongue was warm and wet in her ears and her hair got messed by his lips. They came into a taxi home and she put her head in his chest while he put her inside his black warm coat with his temperature around her. He opened the door in the dark and immediately caught her in his arms. He carried her to his bedroom and threw her to his bed. He took off his black coat and dropped it on the floor and rushed to the bed. He kissed her neck hardly and at the same time he moved her clothes as well. Her fingers were around his back and then he was naked. He bite her skin sometimes which made her feel that he really did care about her and he wanted to make some marks on her. "Baby, am I too small for you?" she asked him unconfidently when he moved on kissing down. "No, not at all. I will make you grow." He answered in a hurry and continued with the hard but happy love work.¬
After he came into her, she cried out again, but in happiness this time. Cos she realized her dream in the end and it would be the forever memory for her. Her blood was also left on his clean white bed when he turned the lights on and wanted to go to the bathroom.¬
"Do you need a pill to stop being pregnant?" He asked in a surprising voice. Though he knew that it was her first time, he still thought he was too young. Even he knew that there was a little possibility between them, at then he would never know that maybe they would never meet again.¬
"No, my love. I would like to keep it." She said.¬
"We can still have one later." He said.¬
"It's ok for me now." She said when she was thinking, it's enough for Me.
"What are you gonna do tomorrow then? Where do you wanna go or who do you wanna see?" He changed the subject when he came back.¬
"Anything with you. You say it." She said, trying to hide her sadness.¬
"Hmmmm, let me think. I will tell you tomorrow morning." He made a funny expression when saying this to her.¬
"Night night." She went to the bathroom and closed the door.¬
He fell asleep easily that night and he dreamt about his kid. It's a lovely boy and he came to find his father when he grew up. Before that, they never met or knew each other at all.¬
She went to the guest room this time but she couldn't fall asleep. Will you make love to me all night till sunrise if you know that I am gonna leave tomorrow morning? Her grandpa came to pick her up at 4 o'clock when he was still in his future dreams. His face looked very serious when she went to his bedroom. However, there was a big smile after she kissed his cheek and head.¬
She left the house quietly and said goodbye to him silently inside her heart.¬
Sometimes she considers herself as a deep destiny-truster. She knew exactly what she wanted to get from him since the day she met him. She was sure of the ending. She believes that love only exists once in a lifetime the most and when she misses him, she will never meet the chance again. She has to get married cos it's the true life even her love has been dead long time ago.¬
The plane flies to the blue sky and wind is blowing outside the window. 14 hours have lost forever but everything is worthwhile since she has been together with him for 22 hours.¬
(The End)¬
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