Missnow Palace
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Mar 23, 2009 7:34 pm
Mood: calm,
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Hi everyone here on ff! This is Palace Missnow age 21 from China who lives in Missnow Palace now. Nice to meet all you guys here online. If you are interested in making friends with me too, plz do add me on em es en for the name as cheer.snow at hote male(Plz do remember that there is a dot in the middle!). Right there waiting for you!......Love and kisses
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My Mr. Banana Pineapple
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Sep 4, 2009 8:03 pm
Mood: depressed,
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Last April he was a fool
Just that day I met you
I said hey my name's May
You can call me baby honey sweety
No no no no. I can't help you
Cos I am Banana Pineapple
Gonna be busy on the TV show
Bye bye and thanks for saying hello
If you are with me, then we'll be happy
And you can see that right through me
Don't set me free but please believe
Your smile is my heart's only key
Cos I love you Mr. Banana Pineapple
And I know that I am not a fool
Be mine.
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When Thinking of You
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Sep 4, 2009 7:56 pm
Mood: depressed,
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When winter comes to you,
Do you feel its coldness?
When love falls upon you,
Do you feel my heart?
When stars show up at night,
Will you also look into the sky?
When I am right here thinking of you,
Will you also remember the past?
When sun rises in the morning,
Have you woken up from your sweet dreams?
When I am writing this to you,
Are you also thinking of me, my love?
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If Only I Could Fly
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Sep 4, 2009 7:50 pm
Mood: depressed,
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Time goes so slowly by
When the sun never shine
I no longer have you by my side
Darkness is so horrible at night
Even stars won't sleep in the sky
Wishing that you could hold me tight
Finally I wait for you till sunrise
However the sea is too large in size
Oh my love far away if only I could fly
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Line of hurt&love for him
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Mar 23, 2009 7:49 pm
Mood: excited,
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I guess that everyone in the world will surely have this kind of line which will hurt you someday somewhere. When there are a lot of different people come to ask you to go out, you choose to be alone and stay where you were before. Maybe you are just enjoying yourself being lonely, or there might be another kind of thing: You are missing and waiting for someone right there, where you met each other for the first time.
I think I am really falling in love with him now. Though I have known that it will be another disaster for me, I believe that I have no other choice but loving him.
I don't know his No. as a man for cheating on me. And I don't know what's going on him.
I am so lonely when I am waiting for him all the time on the way. I am so busy when I am missing him a lot. It seems that I have nothing else to do in my life but thinking of him. Even he is so unreal for me, just a kind of dream that has never become a reality.
Oh baby, where are you and what are you doing now? Have you forgotten all about me? Why not try to contact with me if you can feel me? Have you disapeared in the world? No, plz don't, never. I can't live without you. I can't accept losing you. Plz do not leave me alone here in the world, ok? Be together with me and let me feel that. Come to me in the night and hold me tightly in your arms and never set me alone here again. Plz take me away when you go next step.
Oh my god, can you make another promise to me that he is still in love with me? Will you do me a favor, as I am your honest kid.
Time passes by so slowly and sadly without him in my life. I tried every way to find him, but I failed all the way. How can I keep someone whom I love so much? What else can I give more? Will you share your everything with me as you have promised to me baby? Are you still there living for me too?
Maybe it is true that the end of love is death. When I can't hold your fingers in my hands anymore, baby, will you stop to say goodbye to me? Will you remember next season?
I am so sad and despair now. Even before that I had wished that hope was still with me so that I could move on again. But how about now? I choose to wait for him only. I don't know where my future is and what my tomorrow is like. I thought that my love for him would be everlasting. But now I am not sure again. Cos without him, I don't know how to.
How I wish that I could go through his heart directly and feel his beating! How I wish that I could be with him all the time that I would never miss any second or moment with him! How I will that he would love him so much like what I am doing now!
He is the first man that I wanna give all myself to.
He is the one that I wanna be together all my life.
He is the last man that I wanna fall in love with.
He is the one that I wanna kiss and make love with.
He is the only one that I wanna marry with and have kids with.
He is the only one that I wanna hold tightly all the way.
He is the only one that I wanna love forever.
He is the only one that I wanna die for.
He is the only one that makes me get old.
He is the only one that makes me forget all about myself.
He is the only one that I wanna give my everything to.
He is the only one that I will never forget in my whole lifetime.
I met him in April 14, 2008 and it was such a lovely day in my history. I was interested in him the first sight I took on him. Even we had been in the different classes then. Also there were so many other girls like me who want him. They were even more beautiful than me and better than me. So I was not confident at all then. But I still told him that I wanna know more about him and make friends with him. I sent a lot of messages to him saying that I liked him. But at first I didn't get any responses from him. I thought he was not interested in me at all, which was so natural. But one day I suddenly got one message back that made me so exsited. He told me that it was not able to reply me back cos of my settings, which stopped him from appoaching me. More importantly, he also told me that he liked me too.
That day I became his girl. At least in my eyes cos he asked me if I had a bf then. I said no and asked that if I had a chance with him. He said of course yes and what about me and if he had a chance with me also. I answered sure he did! It was Oct 10th, 2008. Before that I told him that I had been known him since April. The truth was that I had just decided to forget another guy and kick him away from me.
But I had to go home at once for daddy's call. Even I didn't wanna seperate from him. All I had to do is wait for another chance, which is given by god. And I hope then he will still remember in his heart, just like I would think of him every day and night at home.
I was trying to say happy birthday to him on Jan 6th, 2009, but I had to stay at home. Even I had put him into my heart during daily life.
The other day before I came back to school, I went to a net bar with my father. I met him at last online but I had no time to talk to him even just to say hello. I didn't know if he had seen me, but knowing that he was still in the world made me so happy then.
In Feb 23th, 2009 I was here again, finally. But I had to wait for March. Before that I went to a free bar to send messages to him and days later he replied me back. I was so happy that he still remembered me and thought that I had forgotten about him. Oh my love, how could I have forgotten about you since you have been living in my heart since the day I knew you!
Days later we finally talked to each other and both of us were so happy and excited that we met at last. It was so difficult for us being together and we both appreciated a lot for that we had found each other in the world, in this large and complicated world with so many complex people.
Anyway, I love him!
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I Wanna Be A
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Dec 6, 2009 12:36 am
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I wanna be a great famous writer to write down all our stories;
I wanna be a emotional poiet to post all the wonderful lines for you;
I wanna be a shinning star to sing each beautiful song to your ears;
I wanna be a perfect actor to play again and have our movie again together;
I wanna be a powerful painter to draw all of your handsome pictures in my memory;
I wanna be a brave speaker to tell the whole world about you and us being together;
I wanna be a common teacher to share all of your new and fresh ideas with my students;
I wanna be a real mother to have the best kids in the world with you;
I wanna be a forever traveller to search around the world to find you back to me;
I wanna be a good kisser to let you know how much I love and care.
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When People Say: I Love You
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Nov 16, 2009 1:45 am
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I know it's hard to give up but only this you can move on to a new beginning.
When people say that they love you, it means they are not sure of the love itself so they have to say it out to make themselves more confident.
When people say that they will call you back or later, usually it means they will not do that again.
When people say that they will keep in touch with you, it means that they are telling you that they don't wanna contact with you, but they are forcing themselves to.
During this cold season, I have been searching and looking around to find out the true of me inside. Who am I? What do I wanna get in the end? What do I care the most? What will my future be like? Will I be happy? Will I live better? I think I have lost my noble pride once again for some reasons for some persons which made me lose myself. I feel so lost in my dreams. The world is not completely dark yet but so grey all over. The traveller in time hasn't come to me yet, and I am not sure if he can take away my loneliness and bring new things to my life. He is not sure if he can heal the wounds to lead me to the sun. I need to continue walking alone to find the one who will be with me in the path till the end of time. He doesn't even know what to do, then what about me? I am not confident or strong enough and sometimes even too weak. I must cheer up and try to be happy. I know that I will surely meet someone new in the future and I must believe in that. I am still young, but I can't spend my whole life waiting somebody that might never come to me. You will be better than him, I can feel that right now. Hold on, I am coming to you.
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What's Wrong On Earth?
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Nov 4, 2009 4:29 am
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I just watched the movie called “Baby Sisters” and I was tollly shocked at last! What’s wrong with the world itself on earth?
The highschool girl student works very hard for his tuition in college in an inlegal way. She sells not only herself but also runs the selling “bussiness” if we can call it this name. She takes some guys to beat the girl and her customer for she doesn’t obey her rules of giving her 20% to her and does things behind her back. At last she finds out that the customer in fact her own father. This is really a crazy world completely out of my imagination. How can it be like this and why?
I never understand. Who can tell me?
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Angles' Hearts waiting Out There behind the Hill
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Nov 4, 2009 3:47 am
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I have been watching a lot of movies recently, both home and abroad. But I don’t wanna really write something about that. Maybe most of them were too far away from me, or I just forgot them the next day. However, I can’t stop thinking about this one since last night called ”Angel’s Heart” and I must do something for it.
It’s a simple story directed by a guy who was born in the 1980s. The story is made in memory of those who have been teaching in small poor villages in south of China and also given as a special present for them.
A young college graduate girl wants to continue her research about education problems in mountain area countryside. So she tries her best to apply for teaching for 3 months far away from the city. She has a boyfriend who used to study aboard and came back in college time. They were very much in love with each other before they came to the small village together. The girl says that it was a love test between them. She tells him that if he can stay with her for that 3 months, then she will marry him at once when they come back home. The boy was quite sure of himself with that cos he thought he loved the girl very much and he would love to scarify for her. He never thought the difficulties would be so out of his imagination.
On the train to the village, they were still very excited about what was gonna happen to them. They called their friends to tell them the big news on the empty train till it stopped at a very beautiful place. There was a small truck pulled by a cow. They were still singing on the way for the nice trip, if only it was only a travel trip.
The head of the village waited in the entrance of the village and gave them a very big and warm welcome in a very funny way in our eyes. He was speaking his native language but not madrin and he looked stupid as well. There were big and deep time marks on his forehead and his teeth were dark brown and some of them were broken. His face was the color like a burnt skin. They were both shocked by him as well. He introduced the head teacher who was also the only teacher there to them. The head teacher called all the 18 kids in the school together and they gathered in a very impressive way. One of them carried a pig in his arms with a box cos there was nobody else at his house and it might be stolen; another took the cow there cos his mom asked him to feed it with grass on the hill after that. When they were all welcoming to the new teachers, the cow suddenly ran away and they had to chase it around. The chickens were frightened as well.
There used to be another teacher from a big city who served here for free for about 2 months. She taught the kids in a completely different way, like the Britain and American. All the kids loved her a lot and when she had to leave there at last, all the kids cried out loudly. The kids became smarter than before and it was even more difficult for the head teacher to educate them cos of the comparison. Both the head of the village and he were afraid of the same thing happening again, so they tried very hard not to let the new teachers in charge of main lessons like Chinese or Math. Meanwhile, the girl’s boyfriend was totally astonished by the surroundings and he never stopped looking for fun himself. The signals were pretty bad there and he even fell down to the ground when he climbed a ladder to the roof to make a call about football competition. Even he tried to play football with the kids; it still couldn’t help at all about his loneliness and boringness. They never had meat since he went there cos it was not in a festival and at first he quite much liked it for it helped losing weight, but later on it turned very terrible. So he asked the head teacher to kill the cow or even some chicken for meat, but the head teacher told him that the cow must live for working on the farm and the chicken have to stay for the eggs and the eggs have to be sold for the text books for the kids. But he still wanted them badly so one day he took some risks and chased after the chicken. The result was that he was caught by the dog and got a bite from it as well. When after all of this he came to his girlfriend for comfort, she just said that he deserved all. She had been very cold to him cos she was still worrying about how to teach main lessons there. He wrote a letter to the head teacher and asked him to let the girl be in charge but it didn’t work out. They even thought of a way to vote for the Chinese teacher and all the kids chose the head teacher cos he asked them to. Later the girl got an unknown letter about the truth and finally she took the charge. Of course at last we know that the one who wrote this was in fact a little boy who never spoke since his father heat him badly and seriously after drunk. When the girl was enjoying all of this and felt great of herself, the boy was still bored of the life and it became more and more difficult for him to continue. One day he went near a lake and there was a man fishing. He asked him, is there any fish here in the water? The man replied in a certain voice, yes, sure. He didn’t come back to school when it was very late at night and the girl was quite worried about him. When she was about to shout at the head teacher for she thought it was him who hid her boyfriend again to force them to leave her boyfriend showed up in the dark distance in a very disappointed mood. They asked him where he had been and what he had done. He told them that he went to a lake but didn’t get any fish till too late. “But the man near the lake told me that there is! “ He said. “You mean the man who has been crazy for years?” The headteacher said. “Yeah. I finally knew it at last.”
He went to the room to pack his luggage but the girl wouldn’t allow him to go. She held her in her arms tightly and he stayed in her bed that night. Before that he was arranged to sleep with the headteacher and he kept on complaining about his snoring and moving around. In the morning she went out to climb the mountain with the kids when he was still sleeping like a baby. When they were happily playing there, the head of the village ran there and told her that her boyfriend just left. She ran to the station immediately and when she got there, it began to rain very heavily. But she couldn’t stop him when he said this: “Yeah, You are right. I am a big fool since the day I came here, just like the one who keeps on fishing in a lake without any fish! I wanna go home now and I miss my family!” “Then how about our love?” She asked. He didn’t say anything but cried out tears. The girl fell down to the ground when she walked back to the village and she woke up in a hospital. The biggest girl in the class was there as well as the headteacher. They talked a lot about how he became a teacher and why. He said that he felt so proud like a general when speaking on the stage. One day the biggest girl suddenly disappeared and she told him that she had gone to work in the city. He got very angry for that and later on told her the truth. He said the girl’s father died cos of him. His father got deaf when he was young kid playing fire on the street. Then he went to the city to work and was killed by the truck behind cos he couldn’t hear at all. He said that he must be responsible for the girl and he couldn’t allow her to be like his sister. His sister went to the city to work at first selling things but later on selling bodies. She jumped out of the window in the 18th floor when the police came to catch her. She mistook the window as a door…
The girl teacher’s eyes were wet after hearing this and she went together to the city with him to find her back. He asked her to take some photos for him to find a wife in a dating place at town.
3 months have been over and she had to go back to the city as well. Of course all the kids cried again when saying goodbye.
One day the head of the village came to visit the girl teacher in the city and brought her some fruit in the hill cos she likes them. When she asked him to take some photos back to the headteacher, he told her that he had been dead when trying to fix the wall and roof of the school. She was deeply touched by this and decided to go back there again.
One day two journalists came to the village after hearing her story. They wanted her to tell them something but she wouldn’t like to so they asked her to just take a photo. She was sitting in the chair in the middle in the front when a little kid moved another chair near her and some other kids put some wild flowers on the chair.
That was the end of the story.
I couldn’t forget about it cos it has so much to do with my own dreams. To become a teacher when grow up was the first big dream that I had in my childhood and even it’s too small in others’ eyes. I think maybe someday I will chose to teach like this as well.
For the love part, I think I am very confident of myself in some points as well, especially in the faith for the power of love. I think people can change the world as long as they have got enough love in their hearts. And I also believe that love can make mysterious things happen cos it will bring two completely different persons together and try to be better for each other.
At last, it reminds me of a famous write in Taiwan called Sanmao. She married a guy from Spain and lived together in Sahara for many years. She didn’t choose a way to teach there, but she found a way to live. And the love between them is forever and what I want. He loves her and then he will follow her anywhere anytime till the last moment of his life. He died for her at last when trying to catch some fish in the sea for her and she killed herself as well after his death. She said that without regret and sorry to her parents, she wouldn’t feel so painful at all.
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