http://friendfinder.com/blog/bribook/index.html?site=ff&pid=p9814 [B][SIZE 3]Where insomnia and inspiration intersect[/SIZE].[/B] -- These are vignettes, moments caught in the light of imagination and refracted through the lens of language. These also are thoughts, ramblings, musings. The impressionistic diary of a man in slow free fall, out of love, into love, all the way to the bottom of everything. Enjoy. http://friendfinder.com/blog/4616/post_120162.html?site=ff&pid=p9814&m= Why does the top of my FF blogs browser say this? 'Get down with the hottest sex blogs, dirty secrets and hot fantasies. Get some swinger action on FriendFinder blogs.'Get some swinger action?On the b Tue, 15 Sep 2009 06:48:03 -0800 http://friendfinder.com/blog/4616/post_120162.html?site=ff&pid=p9814&m= http://friendfinder.com/blog/4616/post_119249.html?site=ff&pid=p9814&m= This was going to be a comment at Pigflu's blog. I decided to keep it for myself, as I had a lot to say.I am a proud American man. I want to still believe the USA is capable of tremendous achievement Sun, 16 Aug 2009 02:28:35 -0800 http://friendfinder.com/blog/4616/post_119249.html?site=ff&pid=p9814&m= http://friendfinder.com/blog/4616/post_118965.html?site=ff&pid=p9814&m= It's been a long time since I wrote a love letter.You know — a real LOVE LETTER, the kind that somebody in a Nicholas Sparks novel would pen, shot through with happy aches, delicious longing and uncon Wed, 05 Aug 2009 20:09:14 -0800 http://friendfinder.com/blog/4616/post_118965.html?site=ff&pid=p9814&m= http://friendfinder.com/blog/4616/post_118567.html?site=ff&pid=p9814&m= [image]The glossy glare on the screenCovers everythingStop worryingA warm, knowing smilePuts aside the need to lieFor a while Alibis turn liesTo truthLet’s say that again:AlibisTurn lies to truthSleep Thu, 23 Jul 2009 17:50:06 -0800 http://friendfinder.com/blog/4616/post_118567.html?site=ff&pid=p9814&m= http://friendfinder.com/blog/4616/post_118060.html?site=ff&pid=p9814&m= [image]Look at it. Look at that steaming slopbucket of secret goodness the hurried waitress set down in front of me on Thursday afternoon, June 25, in the small dining room of an open-air food stall Sun, 05 Jul 2009 23:03:48 -0800 http://friendfinder.com/blog/4616/post_118060.html?site=ff&pid=p9814&m= http://friendfinder.com/blog/4616/post_112767.html?site=ff&pid=p9814&m= .... and THAT, kids, that is why you should always drink your lemonade cold! Hahahaha ... Nothing tastes worse than warm lemonade on a sticky hot day!*applause, applause*Once I met a really cool dude. Tue, 17 Feb 2009 19:43:55 -0800 http://friendfinder.com/blog/4616/post_112767.html?site=ff&pid=p9814&m= http://friendfinder.com/blog/4616/post_112596.html?site=ff&pid=p9814&m= High above the gloom,I see a golden window,And I know it's the last lightLeft on for me.What's she doing now?Waiting up, I guess.This new love, is it true love?Is it safe yet to confess?What's she thi Fri, 13 Feb 2009 21:33:33 -0800 http://friendfinder.com/blog/4616/post_112596.html?site=ff&pid=p9814&m= http://friendfinder.com/blog/4616/post_112490.html?site=ff&pid=p9814&m= Should I have been more modest? A little less aloof?I overcame a lot of obstacles early in life, only to set out and create newer, bigger ones later. I might have amassed a small fortune by now, but o Wed, 11 Feb 2009 22:30:23 -0800 http://friendfinder.com/blog/4616/post_112490.html?site=ff&pid=p9814&m= http://friendfinder.com/blog/4616/post_112419.html?site=ff&pid=p9814&m= He clenched up his eighth attempt at greatness, Kicked a dent into the side of his deskAnd rose from his chairSeething.Julianna lay on the sofa.“What’s wrong, my dear?” she asked.“Nothing,” he said as Tue, 10 Feb 2009 03:29:13 -0800 http://friendfinder.com/blog/4616/post_112419.html?site=ff&pid=p9814&m= http://friendfinder.com/blog/4616/post_112171.html?site=ff&pid=p9814&m= Splayed like legs of a spider,Faceless, yet so alive,Or squeezed solid, fleshy stoneExtracting everything from nothing.Terse and tense and trembling, likeWeeds in the midwinter wind,Reaching, yearning Wed, 04 Feb 2009 19:06:09 -0800 http://friendfinder.com/blog/4616/post_112171.html?site=ff&pid=p9814&m= http://friendfinder.com/blog/4616/post_112065.html?site=ff&pid=p9814&m= “All my lies are always wishes. I know I would die, if I could come back new.”Wilco, “Ashes of American Flags.”A couple of years ago, a blogger friend at another site asked me, in a thoughtful comment Mon, 02 Feb 2009 17:45:45 -0800 http://friendfinder.com/blog/4616/post_112065.html?site=ff&pid=p9814&m= http://friendfinder.com/blog/4616/post_111887.html?site=ff&pid=p9814&m= The more he writes to understand others, the more he is, himself, misunderstood.And he finds thatThe greatest lonelinessIs to recognize everyone's sadness In a flash of clarity,Only to have it all thr Thu, 29 Jan 2009 10:41:44 -0800 http://friendfinder.com/blog/4616/post_111887.html?site=ff&pid=p9814&m= http://friendfinder.com/blog/4616/post_111714.html?site=ff&pid=p9814&m= That's the question tonight, the one I'm never going to answer. The impulsive part of me — the part I hardly listen to anymore — keeps insisting a kiss would have changed everything. If I'd kissed you Mon, 26 Jan 2009 07:19:49 -0800 http://friendfinder.com/blog/4616/post_111714.html?site=ff&pid=p9814&m= http://friendfinder.com/blog/4616/post_111561.html?site=ff&pid=p9814&m= She said, "I don't tolerate mind games."And her words still skittered across his mind like little black bugs as he walked quickly up the crooked boulevard, past old, brick-red buildings, past cracked Thu, 22 Jan 2009 19:42:12 -0800 http://friendfinder.com/blog/4616/post_111561.html?site=ff&pid=p9814&m= http://friendfinder.com/blog/4616/post_111198.html?site=ff&pid=p9814&m= ::: Things about me you probably don't know. :::1. Every day I rise at the crack of noon, when I can get away with it.2. My shoulders are broader than you think.3. My mother was not yet 15 when I was Wed, 14 Jan 2009 19:08:09 -0800 http://friendfinder.com/blog/4616/post_111198.html?site=ff&pid=p9814&m= http://friendfinder.com/blog/4616/post_111100.html?site=ff&pid=p9814&m= When the banished returnFrom locked cages, in hellHow will you greet them?Eyes flashing, teeth gnashingWho's gonna stand in their way?This is the price of justice,The fine print you didn't see, The lo Mon, 12 Jan 2009 22:03:17 -0800 http://friendfinder.com/blog/4616/post_111100.html?site=ff&pid=p9814&m= http://friendfinder.com/blog/4616/post_110756.html?site=ff&pid=p9814&m= I have fallen behind here.Recently, I've lacked either the time or energy to stay in my routine of reading and replying here at the Friendfinder blogs, and the accumulating weight of it all saps me wh Sun, 04 Jan 2009 15:09:47 -0800 http://friendfinder.com/blog/4616/post_110756.html?site=ff&pid=p9814&m= http://friendfinder.com/blog/4616/post_110544.html?site=ff&pid=p9814&m= I take the evening walk home over snow-dusted yards and sidewalks as the cars are turning on their lights. The wind throws my white breath behind me, but I don't mind. I suck in the cold till it bur Tue, 30 Dec 2008 17:53:22 -0800 http://friendfinder.com/blog/4616/post_110544.html?site=ff&pid=p9814&m= http://friendfinder.com/blog/4616/post_109901.html?site=ff&pid=p9814&m= The morning after dawned cold and white here in the frozen Midwest. It wasn't much fun cavorting in the wet, windy chill yesterday evening. The roads seemed dangerous already. I got myself home in has Tue, 16 Dec 2008 17:14:35 -0800 http://friendfinder.com/blog/4616/post_109901.html?site=ff&pid=p9814&m= http://friendfinder.com/blog/4616/post_109618.html?site=ff&pid=p9814&m= "Sleeping is giving in,No matter what the time is.Sleeping is giving in,So lift those heavy eyelids."— By the Arcade Fire, "Rebellion (Lies)"I like a good, hard slumber as much as anyone. Ok? But ther Wed, 10 Dec 2008 21:32:18 -0800 http://friendfinder.com/blog/4616/post_109618.html?site=ff&pid=p9814&m=