I miss him !!
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Posted:Jun 3, 2008 12:28 am
Last Updated:Jun 3, 2008 6:30 pm 2461 Views
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Thinking about him .. too much maybe.. i guess i am in love.
I print out pictures from bali and.. all of those pics made me smile.
I made good decision sharing holidays with a "stranger" hehehe...
Even if this not work out.. i wont regret it.. ever ! its just too beautiful...
Too bad i can't share all of those picturess here !
well at least one picture of him and me hehehehe
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I wish it could be easier
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Posted:Jun 2, 2008 11:54 pm
Last Updated:Jun 4, 2008 6:20 pm 2353 Views
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Yes, i always have this "envy" to my other friends that meeting a nice guy somewhere by accident, and 3 month later get married..
I wish my love story could be that easier...
I always questioned my self whether i am a type of girl that having this complex mind.. a.ka looking for trouble.
I always like expat guys. Some one that from far away. Different cultures, languages, out looks. Prefer white guy.
I know guys are the same eventually, local or expat.
But based on my extremely minimum experience.. i prefer with white guys (okay girls.. i know this sound racist and very naive). I say white because i meet one from USA, UK, Swiss and Australia.
I know not all this "white guys" are good.
Some are having problems with their attitude too.. drunker, or worse, like to hurt woman.
But white guy that i meet so far so nice, sweet.. well.. okay maybe for the first 3 years they are.. or i am just lucky ?
At the end most of this relationship with these guys end up... not a short relationship..
I date with a guy from Texas for like 4 years... longer than some marriage at USA.
I just keep asking to my self lately, why can't i like locals.. and every time i ask that, every time i get disappointed.
I just wish... my love story could be easier 
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Modern Kebaya
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Posted:Jun 2, 2008 5:42 pm
Last Updated:Jun 3, 2008 6:34 pm 2634 Views
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My mom gave me some cloth material for "kebaya dress" (the one that i use at my profile pict).
I am so excited to see new design of modern kebaya.
I realize that even i am modern, i don't want to let go my cultural side.. well.. the dress is pretty and made you look slimmer, why not ? hehehe.
Kebaya is indonesia traditional woman clothes. If you browse on internet you will see how pretty the dress is. Its really designed for woman to look gorgeous ! we use it on special formal occasion like wedding party. Its much better than a night gown i think. Well gown have its own charm. But this one.. have asian charm... mysterious and yet sexy. I said mysterious because its cover almost 90 % of your body and tightly wrap your body, and show your body silhouettes. Biz size woman, small, tall and short would be good in it.
Next month i will decide what will i do with the pretty pink material.. i think i want to do lots of sewing job with it.
I will look stunning with that pink kebaya !
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Sharing Love story
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Posted:Jun 2, 2008 12:04 am
Last Updated:Jun 2, 2008 3:51 am 2511 Views
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While i am doing my work, typing some reports, a specialist come to me and we talk.
His name is Bill, he is a Canadian. He had problem with ticket that he booked. I can't understand first, and then after reading the papers that he gave me, i know he is changing his connecting flight to San Fransisco. He said he want to visit his girlfriend Maria, and she is American.
While finishing the ticket problem we talk.
He meet Maria while he is on vacation at Belize (is it spain ?) and they were friend that time, sending mails to each other until one and half year after that Maria ask him to join another traveling to Spain for celebrating her birthday.
They first didn't expect anything but friendship. But then they shared room, and doing the "traveling code" if someone bugging Maria, he will claim her as his gf, and so on. It becomes love.
Hahaha, its almost the same with my story !
So we talk, and i ask questions, and i feel so relief that i had different point of view towards our relation (Me and Peter).
I told Bill about how i don't want Peter to think i want to use him to get a green card, he said he told Maria the same thing ! and i feel relief that what i am doing its not wrong at all !
Well... i said that because he is 54 years old, and i am 27, i had lack of experience, and he know what he is doing ! (at least he know more...)
I feel relief and not really think that Peter and me as disaster, at least theres a small light to guide me now.
I am not feeling afraid..
Peter said we will meet again near Christmas. I ask him why he don't want to be with his family during that time? i am talking about his two . He said christmas more to a tradition to his family, and he said its okay.
I call him again, that time he went to asian market to get some spices (i don't know what he's cooking). Hearing his voice is really something different made me smile all day
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Oil price, and me
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Posted:Jun 1, 2008 6:04 pm
Last Updated:May 14, 2024 9:9 pm 2032 Views
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Nope, wrong.. even when i work in oil and gas company, when the oil price is getting up, my boss didn't give extra bonuses or anything
Other things price is getting up too..
I just feel sad for other employee that have lower salary than me, that have to raise 4 and pay for their school fee.
Even i guess someone there in Beijing is getting very rich.. and were here is trying hard to find cheap food with good nutrition !!
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Saving for a trip
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Posted:May 31, 2008 5:25 pm
Last Updated:Jun 1, 2008 5:17 pm 2560 Views
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... after thinking, and thanks for my friends here from FF.. i think i am going to saving for two weeks trip to Australia.
I didn't say anything to Peter yet. And it will sure took me a while to save lots of money to get my self there... oh for you the one that just read this post.. i post about this Peter few days back.. maybe you could follow the story from there.. 
Maybe next year, i will be able to go there, thats the fastest...
I don't know where this is going, but i do want to see his family, where he live, where he work. Just for two weeks.
And hmmm.. considering how hard for an Indonesian to get Australia visa... it might take longer to get there too.. especially none sponsoring me from there (unless if i ask Peter to do it).
Its weird but.. yes he did not mentioned about sponsoring me to get visa...
well... i still have this thought.. i don't want him to think that i use him to get green card or anything like that. But also.. it would be easier if he help anyway...
..sigh...
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Me, Peter and Bali
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Posted:May 31, 2008 4:03 am
Last Updated:May 31, 2008 4:58 pm 2318 Views
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I don't know whether posting other web address like this is allowed or not.. here on FF, but i had another blog that i write about our journey.. not fully complete/updated.. but it had pictures that i want to share with all of my nice friends here !!
..hehe even still i don't know where this is going.. still.. i will try to be happy now..
http: //backpacker-girls.blogspot. com
Hope you all happy too today !
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Still going (....nowhere)
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Posted:May 29, 2008 2:51 am
Last Updated:May 31, 2008 4:07 am 2414 Views
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Sorry lately i post so much about my love story
Please dont get bored...
I just want to share what happened, because i believe that i am not the only one who had same kind of relationship just like i had here.
Me and Peter still sending text and mail each other like before we meet. Moving to australia never discussed again since my last mail to him, ask him not to mentioned about that anymore.
He still reply my mails and text messeges.
Last night i get new phone card, and call him. Its expensive.. but i see that long distance need sacrifice, okay, i miss him, and i ned to do something with that.
Beside that love is about building a bridge to someone heart (i read this somewhere).
So i call him, he seemed very suprised and so sleepy, hehehe. I misscalculated the time difference. He is 2 hrs ahead.
He suprised that i call, and didn't recognize my voice, wel we never talk in phone. So i said " do you forget me already pumpkin?" and he laugh. Hes the only guy called me with pumpkin.. haha i dont like that name, same with "babe", but the way he say it funny because the accent.
We didnt have time to talk alot on phone. I am running out of credit. But he text me back and said with all caps lock on, he miss me alot too !
I don't know where this is going, but i still have the feeling that i shouldn't give up on him just like that...
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Culture&Love (the hard thing to do)
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Posted:May 27, 2008 3:53 am
Last Updated:May 31, 2008 3:56 am 2766 Views
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Our first backward steps..
Peter ask me to move with him to Australia.
I can't...
I want to, but i can't.
I feel like i want to cry when i write this because i still feel sad.
I can't because its not our culture to stay together in the same house without marriage. And that would be crazy to talk about marriage this soon, so i didnt mention it to him.
I know that we were moving too fast since the first time we meet.
He want me to meet his family and (did i tell you before he already had two age 6 and 8?) that very anxious to meet me.
I am so happy that his family welcoming me, especially his . I never had problem with , as i see that a bonus instead a burden like some woman see in a divorce man, its the whole package.. hehe..
What i want ?
Sure i want marriage first before moving together. Moving to another country, a place that i never been is a hard thing. In the name of love sure i would do.
But, i can't see the love base.. i mean strong base like marriage that made me sure what i am after at Australia. Reason why i move and leave my job and my mother and sisters.
I can't move because he just a boyfriend.. sorry i use the word just.. because even a marriage could easily breakdown these days...
He know about this culture reason because i do mentioned it to him.
He feel little bit upset about this...
I don't want to loose him... not this soon..
Because if i loose him.. i am not only loose a boyfriend.. i will loose my friend also.. that would be sad...
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Grandmother Obsession
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Posted:May 27, 2008 3:39 am
Last Updated:May 29, 2008 2:12 am 2202 Views
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Yupp.. my grandmother have new obsession, or wish.. or.. sigh..
She keep pushing me to get married SOON.
This just made me so depressed that i dont want to visit her, because everytime i went to her house, she will give me speech about marriage and looking for good guy, etc etc.
And ended with that face.. that look and say: i want to see your wedding (aaaarrrrggghhhhh !!!!)
I can't for now.. i keep telling her about that.
Shes very traditional, my family very traditional about marriage.
All of the girls except me married before 24 years old !! my mom married at age 19, my oldest sister at age 24 my YOUNG SISTER at age 23. And me now 27 years old.
She don't know how i really want to have a family, have , and husband.. i am a normal grown up woman...
I just can't stop explaining to her that everyone have their own way of life.. have their own path... my sisters and my mom and herself married young and very lucky to find the right one very soon.. but my luck not that much in love..
Sigh...
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