| contemplating |
Apr 21, 2008 1:39 pm
Mood: I cant take no more!, 678 Views | | I might take a break from ff for a while. it's putting too much strain on me emotionally, and I just lost my Samiraie, and this mornng I found out that 1 of my US soldier friends still in Iraq has been killed. I cant take this right now and I'm gonna miss the crap out of the guy. I gave hima big huge jumbo hug before I left Iraq and prayed for peace to be with him. I hope you're in a better place friend. so enchantress, Mary cruiser, the Bruces, Ari, and all my other close friends on here, I'll be on daily strength, it's a site. feel free to follow me there, it's a lot more peaceful han this junkyeard. sorry guys I just cant take the war, it destroys everyone and it's taking my best soldier friends too along with my people. some of my US friends are on ds, so I'll go and see them and cmfort them if they know this amazing young man I speak of. if any other soldiers who knew him are reading this I'm so so so sorry...hugs to u all... | |
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| I'm sorry, but... |
Apr 21, 2008 4:27 am
679 Views | if I seem sad, I just lost my camel...
if I seem hostile, I was raised by a terrorist...
if I seem bitter, I have received bitterness...
if I seem unwelcome, I am trying to keep certain people out of my haven...
if I seem bothered, I cant get over harsh words my father left me with...
if I seem defeated, I feel I have failed some...
if I seem empty, it's because I am. | |
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| camelficker? |
Apr 20, 2008 6:05 pm
714 Views | | so, no1, including myself enjoys being called a camelfcker, which was basically what was said. not exact words, but mplied none the less. I didn't notice the comment until recently when I was lookin' through old posts of mine to check for updates which I do from time to time. I knew what was really being said. the posts were, there's a good replacement for her, and I'm officially infertile! u know, I've had to stand behind Samirah a time or 2, but not to commit lude acts. I mean stand behind her in an emotional and moral sense. so I'd like to clear my name, and restore peace in kassville by banning those who have hurt, and continue to hurt me. and enchantress stop calling me uni's friend and accusing me of things u have no supporting evidence of. by the way for those of u who don't know, samirah is gone, and I'm mourning her, so I don't appreciate her being talked about that way! I miss her yes, but she was like the kid I never had to me. I protected her with all I had. so think what u want ff, I'm still the same kass I always was. the peaceful friendly arab. but if it must end this way...that shows what kind of people are willing to believe what they hear. | |
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| wow this truly is a weapon of kass distruction. sorry guys |
Apr 20, 2008 10:34 am
742 Views | | sorry 'bout the blogwar for the last couple days. I've made my decisions on how I will go 'bout this. I'm more inclined to blieve enchantress, as uni has had several handles and dates of birth in the past lil whle. o. not only that, but according to her, I f$%ck my camel. so I won't befriend someone who thinks this disgusting way of me. uni Samirah's baby was not mine and u need to see a neurologist... | |
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| ok Enchantress, what in allah's name is going on heres... |
Apr 19, 2008 10:45 pm
Mood: frustrated, 624 Views | | wtf I tried to comment on your dog post, and it says only friends can comment. ok fine? so I click where it says become a friend orw.e, and now it takes me to this fax order form...I'm not paying a red cent on this bloody site, especially after what I saw tonight hahahaha, so I'm not sure how this is gonna work, u may have to invite me in your network, cuz I tried, and have fallen on my iraqi ass and failed at it miserably...don't mean to keep pointing u out on the blogs, I've done 3 posts in a row on u, sorry, I'm just trying to get this contact anniciation thing solved lmao! maybe we can start this little thing on the groups or something where we can talk and have our friends join? how's that? btw update me on that wordpress thing, I like that site. hugs and peace always, | |
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| enchantress, in case u didn't see... |
Apr 19, 2008 2:09 pm
697 Views | | the only safe way I can think of foru to privately contact me is to send me a mail here on ff and I'll give u my home 1. and yes, my fiance knows I'm on here. shes here too. so yeah. send me a mail o here cuz I really really wanna finish this up I have things to tell to u. I think u need to be inlightened enlightened? damn iraqi spelling! anyway do u have msn or ym anything like that? I got both so we're covered. | |
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| I'm sorry enchantress |
Apr 19, 2008 10:52 am
701 Views | | I can see plainly we don't agree, but being a peaceful person, I don't want to fight with u. as of the ppl u say are liars, I have no way of knowing that so I was simply commenting back to what they told me. u brought it to my attention now...and no, I don't say trust all arabs, but I do ask that we need to perhaps learn to understand each other's blogs and words better. u may or may not read this, but I hope u do, and find it in your heart to forgive me for any pain I have caused u as I have forgiven u. trying not to tear up...I hate fights...u do not need to stay off my blog or keep from pouring your heart out to me as I have done here, I welcome u back, if u agree to forgive me if I've hurt u, and second, to try harder to understand my words, instead of looking at what they appear to be on the surface. it's not too late to start fresh. I am one togive many chances, so do come back, and put off all negative feelings as will I, and know me for who I truly am. if I seem hostile lately, I've been going through hell. thinking, changing, growing spiritually, this is part of my hostile responses. so do come back into kassville, and let's start new. | |
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| I ignore u because you're Arab, Kass |
Apr 19, 2008 8:09 am
Mood: hurt, 738 Views | | Someone on here said that to me. I won't say her name and bully and embarrass her, but she has very prejudice mind about arabs. and yet shes against bullying. I don't like to slander, yet I feel the need to vent my pain that someone would simply ignore u for being Arab. I apologize not. I'm arab and I like it. she knows who she is, I don't feel the need to speak her name it's unnecissary. I'm a peaceful man. so, I will just let u know that I find your words insulting, and not at all encouraging. so if u are going to think of me differently because I'm Arab, please keep away from my blog as it is my haven. | |
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| I have to do this as promised... |
Apr 18, 2008 11:47 pm
654 Views | A while back in my blogs, I promised to post the song that I was working on about America. actually it's written to the American people who saw me as the person I am, not as an Arab or a Muslim. to the few soldiers who I probably wouldn't have survived and made it out of Iraq if they weren't standing by my side. to my American friends that have helped me grow and change and find my own inner soldier. to the rest of America? kiss my Iraqi posterior! Pffffftttttt. Anyway, this is to my American friends I call my second family...some of 'em are on here...god bless u all...
like a tiny seed,
firmly in the soil
nurtured with a love so rare,
given room to breathe,
given time to see,
it's now so clear to me
u were there.
when I was just a flower
afraid out in the forest
hiding from the shadows all alone,
I knew you'd be along
my faith in u was strong
like a sacred song
to lead me home
u led me home.
and with each changing season I grow a little stronger
rising up to touch the open sky.
and if I give u a reason
not to hold me any longer,
u gave me a thousand reasons why...
u were my steady oak
standing tall and strong
protecting me with everything u have.
and I know deep inside,
I would not have survived
without u by my side.
o and I...
I love u all. | |
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| can I stop crying now? |
Apr 15, 2008 9:41 pm
Mood: crushed, 514 Views | hold me...
soothe me...
make it go away...
help me to forgive me...
to take back the control from him...
to go back to being the soft fun kass we're all used to...
hold me...
make it go away... | |
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