| I'm thinking abt going out but... |
Jul 10, 2007 8:00 pm
Mood: silly, 213 Views | | U see, I want 2 do something with my day. It's early, but, I wanna go out. Only problem? It would mean I would have 2 get off my Iraqi a....excuse my Arabic. My Iraqi butt. Better? Lol make that my big Iraqi butt! Haha time 2 watch those eating habits of mine hmmm? Ya thinks? O well. I love eating, I love making things. O and I love feeding ppl. Well see ya. | |
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| answer 2 Ari's question...the many sides of me |
Jul 9, 2007 11:16 am
Mood: impressed, 934 Views | Yes, I happen 2 have many. Some, others will never see, some I show without even realizing. First off, I am a very deep person. I can be extremely emotional at times given my life circumstances. The situtations 2day have really shaped the person I am. At most times, I'm very soft, passionate, sensitive. Other times, I shut myself off from the rest of the world. I guess u could see it as my defence mechanism. I'm so afraid of pain, rejection, maybe even misunderstanding and resentment, that I cut myself off a lot. Another side of me is the tense, bitter, aggressive side, which we all have hidden beneath it all. Very rarely will u see this, and when it does come out, it's not because I'm mad, I'm hurt. It's another way of dealing with it when I don't want 2 cry, which I do a lot of. Another side of me is the side that has an endless need 2 be loved. Sometimes, I have such a strong urge 2 be held by someone, I fall asleep holding something. Maybe a blanket, a pile of clothes, who knows. Whatever is soft, and comforts me. Makes me feel safe 4 the time being. Then there is the shy, reserved side of me. This normally pops its little face out when I meet someone new. Like when I met my baby, we didn't talk much at first lol! Now, I can't go a day without hearing from her. Must...get...to...Canada...lol! Anyways then there's the playful side, which comes around when I'm in a group of ppl I know fairly well. My family, closest friends, and it is usually characterized by me talking Arabic too loud 4 anyone's own good! Lol! Haha we have a tendency 2 compete 2 see who has the loudest voice here. The last side of me I will mention here is the passionate, romantic, even sexual side of me. Again, hardly anyone sees this unless I am in love. Uh, like, right now? She's seen a lot of this one! I don't think I have 2 explain 2 much on it...hehehe...
Hope u've come 2 have a better understanding of me now. Let me know if I can help any further. U're the first person btw, who has really ask 2 know things abt me. That means more 2 me than I can state at the moment...Thank u. | |
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| hahaha my new nicknames... |
Jul 7, 2007 1:13 pm
925 Views | Lately, my baby has the urge 2 call me either Kassamsies, or Arabie! Awwwww how cute. Whatever happened 2 sweeties, or soft baby. Something cute like that. Lol does any1 have nicknames here? Hehehe not like those ones
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| ok that was just wrong! lol! |
Jul 7, 2007 9:08 am
Mood: weird, 933 Views | This is Kassam reporting live from Falluja, Iraq, on another 1 of those stupid idiotic dreams I tend 2 have!
ha ha ha...enjoy!
It started in Canada.. By that time I had moved there. So I was sitting in the sittingroom with my son, a beautiful baby boy. O, btw, I don't have any kids in the real world! lol. So there were ppl that came 2 see me 2 tell me how beautiful and sweet and cute he was. Awwwwww? Every1 was picking him up. He looked just like me! Thats the scary part! I remember him so vividly. Does this mean somethin? Ok ok ok get this.
The next part of my dream had nothin 2 do with my baby. In fact, he was gone! Now I'm back in Iraq, confronting Saddam lol! First thing I said was, on behalf of the American ppl and my motherland, I state the following! Then I insulted him 4 what seems like centuries and demanded that he tell me where the hell Osama is! Lol he just pointed kiddy corner 2 me, and walked away. Hahaha I didn't even follow his gesture lol I woke up.
Crazy dream ...I hate those! They freak me out and make me wonder what they all mean and stuff. Do u have any? | |
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| I was just wondering... |
Jul 6, 2007 11:32 am
Mood: curious, 928 Views | | I wanna hear from everyone on this. What made u join ff? Was it someone who brought u here? Was it cuz of something that hurt u? What made everyone come here. I really wanna know. | |
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| thank u! thank u all! |
Jul 5, 2007 9:13 am
Mood: thankful, 867 Views | Those of u who've been commenting lately have really managed 2 soothe me, and change my views on Americans. I was right all along. U r beautiful ppl, and if u ever needed me I would love 2 b there 4u aat least half as much as u were there 4 me because u have no idea what u've just done. U've restored my faith in believing that there are ppl out there who care 4 me. Faces I've never seen, voices I've never heard, hands I've never held, yet I see the kindness and compasion in many of u. I always say no good deed should ever go unrewarded, so I'd love 2 tell u that if any1 on here should ever need me, I'm always here!
Thank u!
Hugs 2 all... | |
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| 1 more post 4 the American ppl b4 I go... |
Jul 4, 2007 9:58 pm
Mood: optimistic, 863 Views | Sorry if it seems I'm picking on ya. I certainly don't mean 2. But in this post, I'm gonna say every single thing I've always wanted 2 say 2 Americans!
U lift me up, u hurt me!
U inspire me, u leave me with no strength!
U make me a part of u, u leave me out.
U take me as I am, u reject me.
We laugh, we have tense moments.
I tell u things I don't dare tell just any1, yet I keep things hidden.
What I'm saying is this. We've had many tense moments, I have a lot of bitterness, tension, resentment, pain, sorrow, hurt, just pure darkness...I could go on and on...Underneath all that,
America?
I love ya!
I have a few American friends, who make me proud 2 call them friends of mine. They've been there 4 me, 2 soothe, 2 confort and see me through. I can see that many of u r beautiful ppl, with good heart and soul, genuine and sweet, lol maybe u just like 2 pick on me? If u 4get everything I tell ya in this post, just keep in mind that I hold no direct resentment towards all of u as a ppl. I've been hurt by u, tossed like a freethrow, yet I 4give ya. So as I leave u 2day, I'd like 2 extend my hand in friendship, and stop all this bitterness between us. I must admit. I haven't been the perfect angel in all of this either, so here we stand with a chance 2 start new. See me 4 who I am, not where I came from, and good things can come of this.
once more,
I love ya!
Peace, love, unity! | |
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| is it so hard? |
Jul 4, 2007 7:04 pm
Mood: melancholy, 883 Views | | I often wonder what ppl think when they see me which was 1 major reason I did not emmigrate 2 the US of A. U see, not only would I have felt intimidated and out of place, but I would constantly be thinking, what is he/she thinking right now? I mean, given the position Arab Muslims are in now adays, ppl perceive us in many different ways. I've been called a terrorist, towelhead, other names I can't post here, and I'm just gonna say it. It hurts! First I feel rage. Once that fades? Sheer pain. Is it something I'm doing wrong? Can they not look at me and see me as a person? Not as an Iraqi or Arab even? Can they not see past the turban? Am I blocking the view somehow? See this is why I've stayed single most of the time. I only had 1 serious gf, and now I'm in love again. She is the one who sees and knows me 4 me. 4 who I am, not 4 what I am. I see why ppl tell me true friendship is so hard 2 find. I now have a new saying. If ya can't see past the turban, I can't see a point in keepin ya! | |
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| American girls are hot... |
Jul 4, 2007 9:35 am
Mood: naughty, 930 Views | | (blush...) lol. Finally found someone who I can call a true friend. Well at least I think I did...Kinda soon 2 tell, we'll see here. And ya, shes American...Lol I can't exactly say I get along with Americans 1000 percent of the time, but uh.....purr....lol. Shhhhhhh don't tell them I said this hahahahahaha. Lol this is the kind of thing I discuss with my fellow Arabs! But I'm putting it out there. Kassam officially thinks American girls are hot! | |
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| ok, y is it that... |
Jul 3, 2007 10:04 pm
Mood: annoyed, 735 Views | Everytime ppl ask me abt my life here in Iraq they always ask abt bombs and warplains planes? Look.I understand the curiosity? But uh...uh...ummmmmmmm...uh I don't like talking about frigging bombs! I'd rather tell ya somethin like shite about my culture and junk like that. I mean, honestly! Sheesh! Kassam's daily rant is now through.
As I've been saying lately...
God bless America,
peace in the Middle East!!!! | |
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