| omg out of the blue... |
May 9, 2008 5:24 pm
Mood: hurting, 455 Views | | I'm officially in the US. theres the happy news. the not so happy news and the thing thats bugging me, and yes, I've been having lots of fun with ur troops, but anyway...lanka never used to have a prob with me until recently I noticed that she was starting to get tense in certain situations.I mean she finds it hard to get into intimate moments with me. before u say tmi...I'm mentioning this for a reason. I told her just to come out and tell me whats wrong. I asked her to tell me why all of a sudden shes all uptight with me. turns out, she has a hard time dealing with the fact that my father is a terrorist, and knowing that while shes trying to be all warm and fuzzy with me is not the mose soothing thought in the world...I told her I'd never hurt her, she knows this, but shes just been thinking lately about him, and shes letting him interfere with us. I dn't know how to soothe her, or put her mind at ease on this 1...I'm lost for ways...no clue...I just feel really bad that shes thinking of him when she looks at me, I don't even look like the guy, I sound nothing like him, hell! I don't look related to him at all! why is she thinking of him when shes with me, and why so sudden? I need help....no seriously I need help...this hurts me. whenever I try to do things with her like I used to, it hurts her. physically and emotionally. the physical tension comes from her being all...well...tense....my god...I feel awful posting something like this but seriously this is killing me...any thoughts? I mean should I have told her about him at all? if I didn't , I would be lying by omission. I felt she had to know where I came from, I just felt it was the thing to do but now she doesn't want me like before... I need ideas...any1? | |
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