| From My Heart to Yours |
Jul 14, 2008 10:34 pm
826 Views | I feel the wind whispering across my skin as I lay at rest tonight. I am not yet asleep for my mind is actively seeking your gentle touch before I close my eyes. As the soft caress of the breeze washes over me....I send a momentary wish....that it would carry my loving kiss to you.
In only moments I am at peace...wrapped in the warmth of your arms...once more at home. From my heart to yours. | |
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| Believing |
Jul 14, 2008 10:21 pm
749 Views | What will be, will be.
I believe in you. I wish you believed in me. Do you ever feel yourself fading into the background....of your own mind. We make our lives, our goals....so important...and I wonder if we ever stop to think that in a hundred years....all that we have been...will have been forgotten.
I think of a story line I once read....that the Gods are made and destroyed on the memories of their believers. If I follow this logic....each person who has gone and been forgotten is no more. All that is important to me today....is only important to me. It has no value for anyone else and no one else need be concerned with what is dancing through my head. With each day that passes, that value diminshes until I slowly disappear into the mists of time.
It was a very successful day today. I accomplished more work than usual and it went so smoothly that I was amazed. A project that had intimidated me for some time fell rapidly beneath the keystrokes on my computer until it was no longer anything I needed to worry about. Similarly, a meeting with my electrician brought about a handful of answers to a most unusual problem at my house although he truly could not tell me how to fix the problem.
I spent an extended time with Kelly tonight working on the reasons I beat myself up....and how to step out of those patterns. It's all a matter of choice. So many things in life are continual choices. I choose to be positive today. I choose to be negative today. Perhaps I choose to be a shape built up of miscellaneous molecules that is only cohesive in my own mind. Perhaps I choose to lose my mind today. Are all things possible if we only will them to be?
I choose to have a drink today. I choose not to smoke today. I choose to be a good person today. Is it really so simple that it is each and every choice we make each and every minute of our day.....or is it a part of us...bound to us....that we must struggle to cut away with a blade deadened by frequent use?
Still, although I am still struggling within my own mind to understand all that has been laid before me....and yes, Kel...you did a great job explaining....I'm doing a really bad job BELIEVING...(nothing new in that)....it was overall....a very good day.
Is it pretentious to say that today is the first day of the rest of your life? How can it be pretentious if it is truth? So...today I learned to take a baby step on the path to working out this....failing...in myself...this inability to believe that I have value that goes beyond what I can do....to become a part of who I am...for me, because of me....just me.
One tiny step....followed by another tiny step...will always lead us on the path of growth...if we can believe in ourselves....whether or not others do. | |
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