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Thank You Friends Last year I came on here as my mom was dying. It was at the end of February . Now a year later it's my dog/companion who has been like a sister to me. When things happen in my life that hurt me I can't bear to have it witnessed I don't know why. I think it's because my mom was Japanese/German - not especially O.K. with displaying emotion. Even when my brother and sister died in the fire when I was 8 - (3 days before my 9th birthday) - I was slapped across the face for getting "hysterical". I guess I go inwards now when these things happen. Here on FF last year in my time of sorrow I felt I could show my pain. I loved the ((((((hugs)))))) I was sent then - especially since a friend whom I had come to think of as a brother had just turned away from me in a most cruel way and my siblings were at odds witrh me because I had spoken up about wanting them to come and see our mom. Here I found friendship and caring on a deep accepting level - on what felt like a soul level. This hurts ! I can say it to you and I don't feel I am failing some code of behaviour ingrained in me from early childhood. I thank you for helping me shoulder this pain with your caring . |
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WELL I THINK YOU NEED ANOTHER BIG HUG! SO HERE IT IS HUGZ XOXOXOXOXOXOX Let me touch your heart with gentleness of mind body and spirit
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There are more of us out there Flame that have a hard time expressing feelings. I just know that I am trying to change myself from the way I was raised. Bless you and may you be embraced with all the love that surrounds you from all your family and friends here and the angels around you. ++++*HUGS*+++++ take care Sylvia
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3/1/2007 9:37 pm |
hmm sending you another hug---that i am peace love and laughter always kel
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3/2/2007 9:42 pm |
FLame... I am sorry to hear that Karma has passed on, but I sincerely believe you will see her again when you pass on, she will be there to greet you, (trite as it sounds) Animals are here to show unconditional love and support, no matter what happens to them they just want to be loved... In Karma's case, she got her wish and them some for it is obvious to me that you loved her dearly. Sens
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3/2/2007 11:32 pm |
Ah Flame, bless your heart. Wish I could hug you in person. Til then ((((( Flame ))))), that will have to do. You have been through so very much. No wonder you are such a strong caring soul. Be good to yourself. I know I literally moved out of my house for a couple months after D-o-g passed, I could not face coming home and not having her here or waking up and not having her in bed with me. I just could not face it after 14 years. And I said never again, never again, four months later, I got two! Thought that would help me not be 'so attached' - yeah right. So much for that theory. Five years later now and I'd be so lost without them too. Hang on to General, burrow your face in his fur and let the tears fall. He'll understand.
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Ahh..sorry to hear of your loss...we, too have a dog named Karma..cant imagine loosing her...she has soaked more than a tear or two, in here soft fur, this past year for me... I'm glad you have been able to find and outlet here at FF...it has been the same for me.. I hope you find peace and comfort with General..they truly are man's/woman's best friend... Wee Earth is the insane asylum for the universe.
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