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This is the first time I've ever lived....alone. When I got divorced, my daughter and I moved in with my mother for an extended period. At the time, it worked well for everyone....since I had a car payment and a horse to support. Now I have this huge old house all to myself. Actually....it's not that big a house...but sometimes it feels that way. Other times...it feels claustrophobic with...stuff. I've been slowly working my way through the stuff. Since Thursday, I've nearly filled two big trash barrels full of garbage. It's simply amazing how much stuff accumulates....and how much garbage people can leave behind. That part irritates...but whatever. I've got my living room finished and in great order for my taste now. I still have some remodeling to complete....but it's getting close to the point I'll need to work outdoors first....and perhaps just get the trim cut to put in the living room when it gets cold again. The dining room is just about in order...although I'd like to make the second upstairs bedroom into a study for the time being...and move my desk and weight equipment in there. The weight bench is too tall to fit downstairs. My house feels totally trashed right now....I seem to keep moving more and more stuff...and eliminating....and in some places it is piled up waiting for me to get there. It keeps me busy. I didn't expect the silence to get to me as much as it does. I've been cranking my music and dancing as I work on the house...and that helps a lot....but it's very odd to have no one to speak to at all. I know I will adjust....I just wasn't expecting that. We went to visit the baby today. It's gotten so cute. Last week it barely looked like a bird....this week it is just adorable....and in two weeks...when I can see it again...it should have some good feather growth started. I love it when I hold the baby....and it just curls up in the side of my neck and burrows in my hair. It's not so great when it has accidents. I must remember to pick up some new rags that I can let him...leak on...lol.. Three of us had gone out for the day....my friend Dean, his best friend Clay (whose also one of my friends)...and me. We went to Pocatello shopping after we played with the babies. Dean and Clay went off and did boy things....looking at guns and tools and hot tub supplies. I went out and got groceries and odds and ends for the house. I wanted another pair of capris for the warm weather...and I think that was the biggest shock for me today. First....that when I put on the size I usually wear....they slid right back off. I was tickled pink with that. Second....while I did buy one pair of black capris to go with a specific shirt....I didn't buy my usual....neutral tones. I bought bright lemony yellow, soft butter yellow, and vivid orangey-red (ok, Kel....I know I said I hate orange...but it isn't really orange....)....I bought bright, glowing colors....and as soon as I got home....I changed into them.....and I feel....great. There are a lot of things that...I often say I wasn't allowed to do....when Mer was here. That's not really true....they were things I chose not to do or wear or buy...or whatever...because I knew there would be hell to pay for it. I hadn't realized how much...not just my attitude...but everything about me....would change...when he moved out. In just a few short days.....almost everything about the rooms I've finished has changed. Colors....textures....personality....it's all me...and it feels comforting and peaceful...and very soft. I haven't made the house....fussy or girly....the colors are still blues....and I still love clean lines rather than clutter or lace....but...Kelly told me....make the house my own haven....and that's what I'm doing. And surprisingly...that's how it feels. So tomorrow.....I cleanse the house...and bless it. I loathe the scent of burning sage....but I really need the last of the negativity to be gone. I have freshly cleansed crystals ready to go in the corners of the house....and I'm looking forward to feeling some really positive energy filling the house. For the first time ever....I invited friends who are men into my house....and it was fun...and playful...and there was nothing negative about it. The energy was positive and I am looking forward to having lots more friends in. I hope....at some point...those friends will include lots of people here....who have come to be such a special...and supportive...part of my life. Feel the passion, walk in peace, live in love....Ari 
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 5/4/2008 2:30 am |
positive changes! That at the right time, matching with the begin of the Spring. Go girl! 
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5/4/2008 4:36 am |
Enjoy Spring
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5/5/2008 10:44 pm |
Great move to sage the house! When my son and daughter in law bought a home about two years ago, it was being sold after a bitter divorce. My sister, who teaches Native American studies at a community college, came down with a Chumash clapper prayer stick she had made. She saged all the rooms, and we chanted while the sage carried off the troubles of the past. So too will the sage free your home. I really believe that homes reflect the energy of the people who live there. Yours, and the crystals, will be ready for the energy of your new life. I know it be filled with wonder and gentleness and joy.
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