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In the past two years...so many of you have reached out hands....and joined me in friendship...and in love. In the past few months...you have taught me a great deal about the willingness to allow another to lean...and the ability to lean when you know the time has come. Never in my life have I had as much support and guidance...as I've had as I worked through...my life...my past...and stepped into a place I always hungered for. My sister...Kelly...many of my friends...didn't believe I would ever willingly take this step. Everyone knew how much I wanted to....no one was sure I'd ever let myself be free of all that tied me....and some...simply thought I wanted something to complain about. I don't like feeling as if I've spent a long time whining. Regardless of what anyone else thinks or thought...this was a step I needed to take...in my own time...in my own way. I have often said I needed to do this with love...and not anger...and I needed it to be his choice as much as mine. I always believed the time would come...and it would fall into place...but I'm not sure I ever expected it to go this easy. Althuogh the past few weeks were tense and difficult....this relationship ended on a positive and friendly note. We are not friends...and probably never will be...but we have a daughter....and a lot of years between us....and there will always be a part of me that is glad...we ended in a way that if we need to....we can speak to one another again...without anger. Tonight I receive a call from my ex....and I knew he was in Denver from the voices I could hear in the background. I wish I could describe the feelings....relief, joy...and an odd kind of loneliness....that there will no longer be anyone to even speak to in the house. I may be making lots of phone calls in the near future...lol.... It is not an atypical reaction...but I did not expect to feel this way at all. I do not miss the man....but the house feels....strangely empty tonight. I suppose it is much the way I felt when we got divorced...although on a much smaller level...I don't feel any sadness...nor do I think of what I could have done differently....I simply celebrate the sense...that I can begin...once again...to move forward. In the past few months I've written a lot about my ex. I'm sorry if those words were in any way offensive or...depressing...but it was a step I needed to take...to set myself free. And now...it is only what once was...and the person who walks away from it...has grown stronger from the experience. As I suspect we do...from all experiences. Feel the passion, walk in peace, live in love....Ari 
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 5/1/2008 3:05 am |
Your blogs Ari have been an insight into your life, and it is good to write your feelings down...i have found it has been a help for me to do this...i am on my own most of the time so it is good therapy...i wish you all the best for the future....you deserve it....have a great day...Rachel
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5/1/2008 5:22 am |
stink--you know why i said i never thought you would see this through--and you know i will say it here again--you stink are stronger within than you realize--i am so proud of you--always my stink will i be one for you to lean upon when you need to ==why cuz stink this old bat is a friend --hugs hugs hugs-- love me
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 5/1/2008 10:59 am |
I came to check if he was gone and see you have managed it! I am happy for you, it has been a great step ahead in your life. Congratulations!
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5/1/2008 2:06 pm |
I'm glad this chapter of your life is over. You bring a smile to my heart...just the thought of where your new life is taking you.
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5/3/2008 9:09 pm |
Finally this door can be shut and locked so you may continue on with your life. Congratulations on seeing this through. I hope and pray that your next journey is one that will make you happy and your life full. Many, many
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