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3/23/2009 7:49 pm |
I guess that everyone in the world will surely have this kind of line which will hurt you someday somewhere. When there are a lot of different people come to ask you to go out, you choose to be alone and stay where you were before. Maybe you are just enjoying yourself being lonely, or there might be another kind of thing: You are missing and waiting for someone right there, where you met each other for the first time. I think I am really falling in love with him now. Though I have known that it will be another disaster for me, I believe that I have no other choice but loving him. I don't know his No. as a man for cheating on me. And I don't know what's going on him. I am so lonely when I am waiting for him all the time on the way. I am so busy when I am missing him a lot. It seems that I have nothing else to do in my life but thinking of him. Even he is so unreal for me, just a kind of dream that has never become a reality. Oh baby, where are you and what are you doing now? Have you forgotten all about me? Why not try to contact with me if you can feel me? Have you disapeared in the world? No, plz don't, never. I can't live without you. I can't accept losing you. Plz do not leave me alone here in the world, ok? Be together with me and let me feel that. Come to me in the night and hold me tightly in your arms and never set me alone here again. Plz take me away when you go next step. Oh my god, can you make another promise to me that he is still in love with me? Will you do me a favor, as I am your honest kid. Time passes by so slowly and sadly without him in my life. I tried every way to find him, but I failed all the way. How can I keep someone whom I love so much? What else can I give more? Will you share your everything with me as you have promised to me baby? Are you still there living for me too? Maybe it is true that the end of love is death. When I can't hold your fingers in my hands anymore, baby, will you stop to say goodbye to me? Will you remember next season? I am so sad and despair now. Even before that I had wished that hope was still with me so that I could move on again. But how about now? I choose to wait for him only. I don't know where my future is and what my tomorrow is like. I thought that my love for him would be everlasting. But now I am not sure again. Cos without him, I don't know how to. How I wish that I could go through his heart directly and feel his beating! How I wish that I could be with him all the time that I would never miss any second or moment with him! How I will that he would love him so much like what I am doing now! He is the first man that I wanna give all myself to. He is the one that I wanna be together all my life. He is the last man that I wanna fall in love with. He is the one that I wanna kiss and make love with. He is the only one that I wanna marry with and have kids with. He is the only one that I wanna hold tightly all the way. He is the only one that I wanna love forever. He is the only one that I wanna die for. He is the only one that makes me get old. He is the only one that makes me forget all about myself. He is the only one that I wanna give my everything to. He is the only one that I will never forget in my whole lifetime. I met him in April 14, 2008 and it was such a lovely day in my history. I was interested in him the first sight I took on him. Even we had been in the different classes then. Also there were so many other girls like me who want him. They were even more beautiful than me and better than me. So I was not confident at all then. But I still told him that I wanna know more about him and make friends with him. I sent a lot of messages to him saying that I liked him. But at first I didn't get any responses from him. I thought he was not interested in me at all, which was so natural. But one day I suddenly got one message back that made me so exsited. He told me that it was not able to reply me back cos of my settings, which stopped him from appoaching me. More importantly, he also told me that he liked me too. That day I became his girl. At least in my eyes cos he asked me if I had a bf then. I said no and asked that if I had a chance with him. He said of course yes and what about me and if he had a chance with me also. I answered sure he did! It was Oct 10th, 2008. Before that I told him that I had been known him since April. The truth was that I had just decided to forget another guy and kick him away from me. But I had to go home at once for daddy's call. Even I didn't wanna seperate from him. All I had to do is wait for another chance, which is given by god. And I hope then he will still remember in his heart, just like I would think of him every day and night at home. I was trying to say happy birthday to him on Jan 6th, 2009, but I had to stay at home. Even I had put him into my heart during daily life. The other day before I came back to school, I went to a net bar with my father. I met him at last online but I had no time to talk to him even just to say hello. I didn't know if he had seen me, but knowing that he was still in the world made me so happy then. In Feb 23th, 2009 I was here again, finally. But I had to wait for March. Before that I went to a free bar to send messages to him and days later he replied me back. I was so happy that he still remembered me and thought that I had forgotten about him. Oh my love, how could I have forgotten about you since you have been living in my heart since the day I knew you! Days later we finally talked to each other and both of us were so happy and excited that we met at last. It was so difficult for us being together and we both appreciated a lot for that we had found each other in the world, in this large and complicated world with so many complex people. Anyway, I love him! |
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3/23/2009 10:22 pm |
I know this feeling...it's awful yet beautiful...I hope God blesses you and your love...  In Jesus Holy Name... 
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3/23/2009 10:38 pm |
I wish you all the best cheersnow Just keep asking God for guidance and mercy in your life..keep the faith. I too know of what you speak..keeping you in my prayers 
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3/24/2009 10:50 am |
Good luck on that. Maybe he will call you in April 2009.
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3/24/2009 9:49 pm |
Thx for your lovely messages and god bless you all!
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3/26/2009 12:11 am |
Do you believe in love and the promises that it gives Dreams are good, the nightmare is.... trying to catch them.
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3/27/2009 10:06 pm |
I wanna, but can't make it. No, never, not yet.
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4/2/2009 7:21 am |
If that s his picture he is really cute. Love is worth trying. good luck
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4/2/2009 7:07 pm |
Well, I had thought of putting his pic too, but I was just not so brave enough. Maybe someday I can in the future when our love is strong.
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9/9/2009 11:56 pm |
This April I had the most beautiful dream ever in my life, though it had never come true yet. Later on I got a text from his mobile from LD and then I had the same dream in June again. It's even more stronger than last time. Love letters fall down to the ground without wings to fly far away like snow. Summer has ended and finally I got his call! I had been dreaming about this for many times at night! I love it when he smiled to me. Even it only lasted for about 247 seconds in all, everything seemed to be so perfect to me only cos it was real! After that we did talk a lot and he told me that he wouldn't lose me again. Yesterday he called me again on the phone and for the 547 seconds I was in heaven! Even actually he never knows about how much I care about and love him yet, that's enough as long as he loves me back as well! No matter how much it is! I am sure that I will be the one who loves him the most in the world and no one else will love him more than I do!
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