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Today is my birthday. Yes, I added another year to my age. Am I happy??? Am I sad??? I don’t know but I am aware of all those things that happened to me in the last few years. My mind, my self, my thoughts and my faith were the only companions I had though there were a lot of people related to me. My early years, I consider being a little idiotic. I was like a wet towel. Heavy, useless and motionless when got comfortable. My mind was like the space. It had only vacuum. Nothing worked well during that period. I was mastering the art of pointing fingers at other when I needed excuses to escape a mishap. Eventually I found out that I was hollow, worthless and highly depressed. I consulted a lot of psychologist for help. But they only spoke text book stuff which was too technical to understand. After few years of having led an idiotic life, I realized that I was missing the kick in my life. So I went on to date my colleagues. It was the most expensive ordeal ever in my life. I used to lie about my identity and sold my soul to enjoy all cheap thrills possible. I smoked the worst rotten stuff ever, I fought with my superiors for no reason, I lost my career in the stock market due to lack of discipline, and I was slowly deteriorating and reaching the final collapse of my life. This was when I lived with a mind of a forsaken person. Help came to me four years ago. It was from my grandfather. He saw that I was like an animal. Purely living on my instincts. My mind was like a garbage bin which needed a whipping rather than a broom to clean it up. My grandfather gave me a two holy scriptures, The Bible and the Bhagawad Gita. He told me that I had to remember one statement all the while throughout my life. He said, “When temptation whispers in your ears to eat the forbidden fruit then know that you are to avoid it.” He showed me the way, he gave me the map. Detached, persistent and divine are the ways of the priest. That ecstasy I sought while I was an idiot and a manipulator, I sure found it here. Today I pray the lord to give me the power to continue to be like a priest for as long as i can. Cheers all… |
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7/15/2009 6:58 pm |
happy, happy birthday Tj!!!  im sure whatever happened in the past you learned from it and you move on. just remember it was the "THEN" whats important is the "NOW" right?  so have fun and be glad that those experiences will only challenge us to strive for more! so go for whatever makes u happy! so welcome 27 and cheers to ur goals in life tj! "Running In Heels..." 
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7/16/2009 3:46 am |
happy, happy birthday Tj!!! im sure whatever happened in the past you learned from it and you move on. just remember it was the "THEN" whats important is the "NOW" right? so have fun and be glad that those experiences will only challenge us to strive for more! so go for whatever makes u happy! so welcome 27 and cheers to ur goals in life tj! ... yeah, i learnt a lot and i know that i have a lot more to fall and learn.... those are good words you wrote Daphne... welcoming 27 and let me see what surprises are in store for me.... cheers Daphne
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7/19/2009 2:04 am |
Sometimes the partie we have all alone allows us the reflection we need to feel at ease with others as well. Trying to find our true talents is not a one day quest Although late ...happy 27 and a nice journey on the road of life. Marijan
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7/19/2009 3:09 am |
Sometimes the partie we have all alone allows us the reflection we need to feel at ease with others as well. Trying to find our true talents is not a one day quest Although late ...happy 27 and a nice journey on the road of life. Marijan cheers marijan...
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7/19/2009 9:04 am |
belated happy birthday TJ  It's what we learned from the past which keeps us moving to the future. be it good or bad, still it enriches our knowledge and give us the wisdom to adhere whatever obstacles we may go through. Cheers to your birthday again, it's better late than never
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7/25/2009 1:49 am |
belated happy birthday TJ It's what we learned from the past which keeps us moving to the future. be it good or bad, still it enriches our knowledge and give us the wisdom to adhere whatever obstacles we may go through. Cheers to your birthday again, it's better late than never tj 
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